how it was
@xaddictx ?'
I'm "still" in "withdrawals" 4 days off, but feeling pretty normal.
my tapering was so fucking difficult due to different stuff, mainly stressors... so it has been irregular, slow and with relapses. Yep, it was so difficult, but it has been very succesful to be honest, barely no withdrawals at all. At least regarding physical symptoms or hard anxiety/depression, this time I didn't have fatigue, by the way, I used mucuna + yohimbe, I even felt euphoric... yohimbe works if you don't feel obvious opioid-like symptoms. I mean, if your symptoms are more antidepressant or stimulant-like then yohimbe works so good. It seems that it can make opioid withdrawal anxiety worse, not my experience at all, it completely erased the withdrawal feelings and light anxious feeling replacing it with light euphoria and energy (always low dose yohimbe, remember!).
I reached 1.9 grams and then went off of it for 2 days, barely no withdrawals apart fom a bit of restlessness, cravings and insomnia, few sneezes... my herbs did work very good for decreasing the bad effects, but the insomnia is something else, you start getting a lot of rebound "energy" so to speak..
then I relapsed for 2 days, little doses: 3 and 2 grams per day. A fucking stressful event made me relapse...
then I came back into withdrawal but even less strong... like only a few sneezes and insomnia, but able to sleep with 0.5 lorazepam or kava kava + mulungu tea mix, so not that bad!!
My final tapering was fast, from 6 to 2 in just 3 days, but to reach 6 it was slow, normally people recommend the opposite, but IMO once you hit 5-6 grams it doesn't really matter what to do if you stabilize there, the withdrawals are generally very light.
The worst thing, by far, are the cravings the first 2 days, is a psychological nightmare for me, I just WANT to use it, the last doses when tapering feel so GOOD. Then the insomnia, you're so full of energy and restless that doesn't matter what you do, you don't feel sleepy, maybe some alcohol or hard exercise would work but I don't recommend the booze, 0.5 lorazepam is a good functional dose, enough for me and not really dangerous if you stick to it for 3-4 days.