I will agree that K is highly addictive! Do not take that lightly. My quick story was I was using K for about two years like a fiend. Became obsessed with holing out and the subject of near death/dying. So to say the least I was really pushing the limits. Doing 100-200 MG and then get right in the shower and have the hot water run down the back of my neck as you look away from the shower head, I find this one of the best ways to trance out, I've stood there before for ten min under the shower not blinking, watching as my shower transformed into and elevator to take me to the parts unknown. Okay so I had had my limit nothing was going right, gf problems, very little hrs at work and I was stuck in this crazy dissociate binge, nothing was looking good and I was probably for the first time really considering on ending it all (that will never happen now). So there I am fetal position in the shower crying like a baby. Decide to do I believe 250mg and did the shower trance I talked about but this time I had this fantastic Zorn & Laswell cd playing. During the two songs I was able to take that inspiration and put it to something positive, I started looking at all the good things that I was over-looking, that shower honestly changed my life for the better forever, I could give a lot more details bit that's the gist of it. K is probably one of the best if not the best anti-depressant. You just have to keep yourself in check with overdoing it, and for my old friend MXE. He will not give you the same cosmic exploration that K will. K is the wise king, MXE is just the jester. I wish you the best of luck!!!