wavyfeeling
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Hello everyone. I have visited Bluelight for helpful information many times before, but have not - until now - posted on here. I am a young man and college student who suffers from depression, anxiety and an array of other related mental-health problems. My mental health has improved after beginning therapy and medication; however, no combination of medications has been fully effective for me so far. Although I have tried loads of prescribed psychiatric drugs, and some “recreational” ones as well, the only substance that has truly defeated my depression etc. - if temporarily - is ketamine.
I am not an expert in using ketamine. I have only tried it twice: once with some very experienced and trusted friends, and the other time in a larger quantity with strangers who seemed to know what they were doing. The experiences were nice, and the second one was even transcendent. More importantly, after each time I have done “K”, my mental health issues have improved more completely and rapidly than ever, and stayed that way for slightly more than two weeks before I am thrown “back to black” — or more like into a muggy, grey antidepressant fog…
I have quite openly discussed my use of ketamine and its effect on me with my psychiatrist. He has been very open-minded and understanding, and has had experience with other patients who have benefitted from the drug. He told me that various private clinics offer Ketamine as treatment for depression, but that since they are experimental, such treatment wouldn’t be covered by insurance and would thus be prohibitively expensive. There are also clinical trials taking place on the substance, but due to their nature, applicants are very likely to get rejected. If you are accepted into a study, you have a 50% chance of being placed on a placebo instead of ketamine. My mental state is delicate, so I can’t afford to take a chance not knowing whether I’m taking saline or real medicine. Finally, my two previous experiences were accidents of chance, and are not repeatable. This means that if I am to obtain K, I will have to resort to more covert methods.
I understand and respect the primary rule of this forum, which is that soliciting drugs is prohibited: that is not why I am posting. Instead, I want advice on the general “scene”, group of people, venue, time or event-type in which I — a gay guy, aged 21+, living in New York City — might find a concentration of people with experience using Ketamine that is unadulterated and not subject to excessive legal scrutiny. I figure that if I learn which scenes to join, I might have a greater chance of procuring Ketamine and reliably treating my mental-health issues.
I am not an expert in using ketamine. I have only tried it twice: once with some very experienced and trusted friends, and the other time in a larger quantity with strangers who seemed to know what they were doing. The experiences were nice, and the second one was even transcendent. More importantly, after each time I have done “K”, my mental health issues have improved more completely and rapidly than ever, and stayed that way for slightly more than two weeks before I am thrown “back to black” — or more like into a muggy, grey antidepressant fog…
I have quite openly discussed my use of ketamine and its effect on me with my psychiatrist. He has been very open-minded and understanding, and has had experience with other patients who have benefitted from the drug. He told me that various private clinics offer Ketamine as treatment for depression, but that since they are experimental, such treatment wouldn’t be covered by insurance and would thus be prohibitively expensive. There are also clinical trials taking place on the substance, but due to their nature, applicants are very likely to get rejected. If you are accepted into a study, you have a 50% chance of being placed on a placebo instead of ketamine. My mental state is delicate, so I can’t afford to take a chance not knowing whether I’m taking saline or real medicine. Finally, my two previous experiences were accidents of chance, and are not repeatable. This means that if I am to obtain K, I will have to resort to more covert methods.
I understand and respect the primary rule of this forum, which is that soliciting drugs is prohibited: that is not why I am posting. Instead, I want advice on the general “scene”, group of people, venue, time or event-type in which I — a gay guy, aged 21+, living in New York City — might find a concentration of people with experience using Ketamine that is unadulterated and not subject to excessive legal scrutiny. I figure that if I learn which scenes to join, I might have a greater chance of procuring Ketamine and reliably treating my mental-health issues.