Zephyn
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Background: so, I've been using ketamine for a little over a decade, once or twice every 3-6 months, sometimes binges of 5g at the most IM.
This didn't happen to me in the past, and I havent had ketamine in like 3 months, but the past year or so, has been different. Before, I would typically khole and then would lay down, have a transcendent experience that I wouldnt exactly remember clearly, but would have some recollection of. I find, these days, I lose entire bouts of memory while using K, blackout style and have been getting up and walking around and injuring myself/the environment around me/knocking stuff over by accident while in the memory-Hole. I am then totally at a loss when told of what happens. The K still has its benefits and afterglow, but confused with this.. is it permatolerance/brain damage? Another thing to note is I can go 6 months with no ketamine and then use nitrous oxide to absolutely no effect. I mean literally I got a tank and each balloon wasn't more intense than a cigarette.
Could be from some permenant brain damage/change from experimental nootropics i used to take?
I also very well may be bipolar, though its uncertain at this point if its side effects from stimulant abuse in the past or a mood disorder.
The thing is K used to effect me normally, now I lose memory? And why can't I feel nitrous at all? Why do I feel unable to get out of bed and feed myself unless I've had ketamine in the past 3 weeks? I also didn't used to need it, perhaps I'm just in a rough patch of my life.
Has anyone else experienced this or am I the only one permenantly immune to nitrous.
Also of note, is K has almost entirely lost its psychedelic effects, and seems to work mainly as a anxiolytic/antidepressant these days. I wouldnt even mind, other than the fact that i bump into shit nowadays, and people usually get concerned for my safety (hitting my head, falling, etc) and have no recollection of it
Also I should add, im not exactly reagent testing, and i havent had any veterinary grade ketamine in a vial like I used to get in a couple years. However, I'm getting the same experience from different batches from different seemingly trustworthy sources. I saw in another thread that someone mentioned some 2fdck in reference to the domestic K scene these days? Surely it couldn't have infiltrated all sources? I will do another trial with a guarenteed and tested batch soon.
The thing with the nitrous makes me feel like it might be some neurological changes tbough.
This didn't happen to me in the past, and I havent had ketamine in like 3 months, but the past year or so, has been different. Before, I would typically khole and then would lay down, have a transcendent experience that I wouldnt exactly remember clearly, but would have some recollection of. I find, these days, I lose entire bouts of memory while using K, blackout style and have been getting up and walking around and injuring myself/the environment around me/knocking stuff over by accident while in the memory-Hole. I am then totally at a loss when told of what happens. The K still has its benefits and afterglow, but confused with this.. is it permatolerance/brain damage? Another thing to note is I can go 6 months with no ketamine and then use nitrous oxide to absolutely no effect. I mean literally I got a tank and each balloon wasn't more intense than a cigarette.
Could be from some permenant brain damage/change from experimental nootropics i used to take?
I also very well may be bipolar, though its uncertain at this point if its side effects from stimulant abuse in the past or a mood disorder.
The thing is K used to effect me normally, now I lose memory? And why can't I feel nitrous at all? Why do I feel unable to get out of bed and feed myself unless I've had ketamine in the past 3 weeks? I also didn't used to need it, perhaps I'm just in a rough patch of my life.
Has anyone else experienced this or am I the only one permenantly immune to nitrous.
Also of note, is K has almost entirely lost its psychedelic effects, and seems to work mainly as a anxiolytic/antidepressant these days. I wouldnt even mind, other than the fact that i bump into shit nowadays, and people usually get concerned for my safety (hitting my head, falling, etc) and have no recollection of it
Also I should add, im not exactly reagent testing, and i havent had any veterinary grade ketamine in a vial like I used to get in a couple years. However, I'm getting the same experience from different batches from different seemingly trustworthy sources. I saw in another thread that someone mentioned some 2fdck in reference to the domestic K scene these days? Surely it couldn't have infiltrated all sources? I will do another trial with a guarenteed and tested batch soon.
The thing with the nitrous makes me feel like it might be some neurological changes tbough.
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