carlitosnoc
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Hello, I am new to this forum and I want to tell my problem here, since I do not know how to face it and I also want to contribute my experience.
I tried ketamine about a year and a half ago and loved it. Since then my friends and I used to catch ketamine once a week when we went out to party, but it wasn't a crazy thing. I started to like it more and more because I discovered psychonautical trips with her (at first I only consumed small doses so I hardly even had perceptual distortions and I did not know that facet of the drug).
Well, three months ago I placed an order on the Deep Web and got a high amount for little money for myself and since then I have become fond of taking ketamine by myself in my room. I started doing it once a week, then two, then three, and finally every day. Now I have not taken ketamine for two days because I am totally obsessed with it, I am waiting all day for night to come to get in my room to travel.
Since I've been using ketamine so often, I think I have a tolerance. The last day I put 300 mg of S isomer ketamine and it did almost nothing, I only saw slight hallucinations but did not feel anything else. The problem is that now I feel that my life without ketamine is meaningless, I only see the beautiful life with ketamine. When I'm not high, I'm sad.
This didn't happen to me for months, when I only used ketamine once a week at most. Why? Before, ketamine even made me happy for the next few days. However now the next day I am sad because I am not high and I want to consume more ketamine ...
Life seems beautiful to me when I have taken ketamine, when I am sober life seems like crap. In fact I am writing this now and was about to sniff a bit. I'm trying really hard not to fall.
I am very worried because I did not know that I could go to these extremes with this drug in two or three months. The problem is that I still have a lot of ketamine at home, I am even thinking of throwing it away or selling it, at least until my situation normalizes and I can consume it normally once a month or so.
Your comments are welcome.
I tried ketamine about a year and a half ago and loved it. Since then my friends and I used to catch ketamine once a week when we went out to party, but it wasn't a crazy thing. I started to like it more and more because I discovered psychonautical trips with her (at first I only consumed small doses so I hardly even had perceptual distortions and I did not know that facet of the drug).
Well, three months ago I placed an order on the Deep Web and got a high amount for little money for myself and since then I have become fond of taking ketamine by myself in my room. I started doing it once a week, then two, then three, and finally every day. Now I have not taken ketamine for two days because I am totally obsessed with it, I am waiting all day for night to come to get in my room to travel.
Since I've been using ketamine so often, I think I have a tolerance. The last day I put 300 mg of S isomer ketamine and it did almost nothing, I only saw slight hallucinations but did not feel anything else. The problem is that now I feel that my life without ketamine is meaningless, I only see the beautiful life with ketamine. When I'm not high, I'm sad.
This didn't happen to me for months, when I only used ketamine once a week at most. Why? Before, ketamine even made me happy for the next few days. However now the next day I am sad because I am not high and I want to consume more ketamine ...
Life seems beautiful to me when I have taken ketamine, when I am sober life seems like crap. In fact I am writing this now and was about to sniff a bit. I'm trying really hard not to fall.
I am very worried because I did not know that I could go to these extremes with this drug in two or three months. The problem is that I still have a lot of ketamine at home, I am even thinking of throwing it away or selling it, at least until my situation normalizes and I can consume it normally once a month or so.
Your comments are welcome.