Hey folks, new here. been lurking for years but now Im in dire straights and it motivated me enough to register for the advice im seeking.
a little background - 27 year old male, opiate addict. story is like many - started with an injury Rx pills turned to heroin. always been able to control my addiction and back it down before i ended up too deep, until this last time that is. found a new source of very high quality stuff, and my use & tolerance sky rocketed thus leading to a $100 a day habit and where I currently am now.
Ill try to keep it simple so yall arent reading my entire life story. I have many factors to consider so I do want to make sure I include all the pieces to my story.
as the title says - I have just started MMT. I tried and tried to kick H and absolutely couldnt. I even had subutex at my disposal for free, a limitless amount of it. this is what i had always done in the past but recently 2 episodes of precipitated withdrawl have absolutely horrified me and keeps me from taking that route anymore... so I thought the answer was methadone. I have been going for a total of 9 days now, and have started at 30mg and am now on 50mg - fairly stable still waking up early every morning not feeling well. I wanted off the methadone asap and dropped my dose 5mg yesterday and had a very difficult day afterwards, pretty serious withdrawls.
now Im terrified of all the horror stories ive read about methadone and everyday I keep thinking if Im gonna quit this stuff I need to do it NOW! cause everyday its only gonna be harder. I have a very good job that Im pretty sure id lose and I am random drug tested very frequently. spending an hour and a half every morning and $90 a week on methadone seems crazy to me - however when i take a step back i was spending an hour a day everyday getting heroin except it was a 600-700 dollar a week habit instead of 90. Thats why I dont know what to do. I know i can stay away from heroin on methadone however it comes at a high price and withdrawl from methadone will come one day, whether it be tomorrow or in 2 years. My plan was to jump from my current dose of 50mg and wait 3 days and start subutex. I have researched it and know robert reccomends 30mg but Im going to suffer either way. I feel like im rambling, i want to see what some of your opinions are. if you need anymore background let me know. thanks
a little background - 27 year old male, opiate addict. story is like many - started with an injury Rx pills turned to heroin. always been able to control my addiction and back it down before i ended up too deep, until this last time that is. found a new source of very high quality stuff, and my use & tolerance sky rocketed thus leading to a $100 a day habit and where I currently am now.
Ill try to keep it simple so yall arent reading my entire life story. I have many factors to consider so I do want to make sure I include all the pieces to my story.
as the title says - I have just started MMT. I tried and tried to kick H and absolutely couldnt. I even had subutex at my disposal for free, a limitless amount of it. this is what i had always done in the past but recently 2 episodes of precipitated withdrawl have absolutely horrified me and keeps me from taking that route anymore... so I thought the answer was methadone. I have been going for a total of 9 days now, and have started at 30mg and am now on 50mg - fairly stable still waking up early every morning not feeling well. I wanted off the methadone asap and dropped my dose 5mg yesterday and had a very difficult day afterwards, pretty serious withdrawls.
now Im terrified of all the horror stories ive read about methadone and everyday I keep thinking if Im gonna quit this stuff I need to do it NOW! cause everyday its only gonna be harder. I have a very good job that Im pretty sure id lose and I am random drug tested very frequently. spending an hour and a half every morning and $90 a week on methadone seems crazy to me - however when i take a step back i was spending an hour a day everyday getting heroin except it was a 600-700 dollar a week habit instead of 90. Thats why I dont know what to do. I know i can stay away from heroin on methadone however it comes at a high price and withdrawl from methadone will come one day, whether it be tomorrow or in 2 years. My plan was to jump from my current dose of 50mg and wait 3 days and start subutex. I have researched it and know robert reccomends 30mg but Im going to suffer either way. I feel like im rambling, i want to see what some of your opinions are. if you need anymore background let me know. thanks