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Just cracked my families safe... how does one resist whats inside...

FreedomCalls

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So I was bored and was able to crack my parents gun safe... little and behold ... I found 3x scripts of adderall, 4x scripts of lorazepam, 2x scripts of roxys and a big uncracked bottle of tussionex...

Now being a drug addict... how the fuck do I just shut that shit after seeing all that. I haven't touched shit yet I'm trying to be a better person but god damn.. thats a mini gold mine right there.
 
A script is not an actual box or bottle.

In that case it is actually helpful you would have to do something to get it.
Use that time to get to senses. In the long run ...

nice work on breaking their safe that is skillfull work. A normal lock is a pain to open without force.

You didn't use force right?
 
Think of the sheer hurt it will cause your family. And the subsequent guilt you will feel will last far longer than any high.

Why do your family have so many prescriptions for so many commonly-abused drugs? If you HAVE to I'd take ONE script and feign ignorance.
But the first thing I wrote is what you should listen to. It. Isn't. Worth. It.

Stay strong!
 
don't try to be the better person. just be the better person. get as far away as possible physically. call your parents and ask them to come back?

if you touch anything in there, they will without a doubt know you went in there. do you want the fallout from that? it sounds like you live with your parents. i can tell you from personal experience that pissing away their trust then having to live with them is excruciating.
 
I know how tough this is. I moved in with my grandma to take care of her while she was very sick and dying. She had huge amounts of morphine, fentanyl and diazepam. I managed to go the whole 4 months without touching it, just thinking how she would suffer without it.

Don't get me wrong, I'm still human garbage and I stole the whole lot after she died....but at least it wasn't anything she needed, you know?
 
i think a few of my braincells just killed eachother trying to fathom willingly destroying morphine / giving it back to the pharmacy

i'm gonna have to leave this thread before anymore of my braincells kill eachother reading about all these unused yums
 
i think a few of my braincells just killed eachother trying to fathom willingly destroying morphine / giving it back to the pharmacy

i'm gonna have to leave this thread before anymore of my braincells kill eachother reading about all these unused yums
It’s what you would do if you was determined to beat a 18 year opiate addiction.
 
what a coincidence,

so now OP, next time when you are bored instead of cracking a safe open, crack a joke
 
i think a few of my braincells just killed eachother trying to fathom willingly destroying morphine / giving it back to the pharmacy

i'm gonna have to leave this thread before anymore of my braincells kill eachother reading about all these unused yums

Yeah, it physically hurt me to read that, too.
 
Why would you put yourself in this position lol. Now you know what is in there and the addict within will crave them far longer than this post is used. I would say to take a Roxy or 2 since it is my DOC but unless you are in legitimate pain, leave them be. The high will fade and the desire will intensify. Forget what you saw. It sounds like your parents need these meds and are saving some in case of pharmacy or doctor discrepancies. You asked what you should do so you know the answer. Be the bigger person and fight the urge. Best of luck.
 
My dad died of cancer and there was shit loads of morphine left over. As a heroin and methadone addict clean a few months do you know what I did? Took it all back to the pharmacy to be destroyed. That was six years ago and haven’t used a single time since.
I’m sorry for the loss of your father. Bravo on destroying the morphine and congrats on your sobriety! Your life became immeasurably better the day you decided to get clean?
 
I know how tough this is. I moved in with my grandma to take care of her while she was very sick and dying. She had huge amounts of morphine, fentanyl and diazepam. I managed to go the whole 4 months without touching it, just thinking how she would suffer without it.

Don't get me wrong, I'm still human garbage and I stole the whole lot after she died....but at least it wasn't anything she needed, you know?

If there is such a thing as human garbage in the first place, it has nothing to do with drugs . . . the closest I can think of are people who fly aeroplanes into buildings, rape people, shoot people from book depositories, and spray mustard gas on people . . . people who get on television and radio and the internet an lie to people because they are so miserable and want as much company as possible.

Using drugs left over from a patient who shuffled off this mortal coil? Not at all -- wasting drugs is a sin especially when in a lot of cases the most economically devastating thing that can happen to a person and their family is for them to get sick . . . I think you were on the side of your better angels and JC, Mohammed, Moses, Buddha et al in this case -- if the cops and busybody parents and community activists in the States really destroy the disused medications they collect, they are Satanic, and I am sure a lot of them are really getting high on the stuff, selling it, or trying out some beginner clandestine chemistry . . . I like to recall more the stories I have seen on Al Jazeera, Russia Today, and ÖRF about different cases of activists and patients collecting extra narcotics for pain patients who are not being treated properly. I think there was an article in Le Devoir too . . .
 
So I was bored and was able to crack my parents gun safe... little and behold ... I found 3x scripts of adderall, 4x scripts of lorazepam, 2x scripts of roxys and a big uncracked bottle of tussionex...

Now being a drug addict... how the fuck do I just shut that shit after seeing all that. I haven't touched shit yet I'm trying to be a better person but god damn.. thats a mini gold mine right there.

I suppose you could use this information to find out why the Tussionex was prescribed and see if you can duplicate that person's luck.

Anyone in the United States remember when Tussionex, or a second Tussionex formulation with extra ingredients, was actually Schedule V and could be bought over the counter in 15 states by signing the Exempt Narcotic Register -- all the way up until all hydrocodone was moved to Schedule III in August 1990? It had two other ingredients, guaifenesin and phenyltoloxamine, and there were a couple of other hydrocodone syrups which had things like dextromethorphan, bromphenamine, B vitamins, pseudoephedrine, ephedrine, PPA, hyoscine, and so on. I don't know if the two ingredients in Hycodan syrup put it in Schedule V in any cases, and the best hydrocodone syrups like Codiclear and Vi Q Tuss were always Schedule III -- now those Bolsheviks have moved all hydrocodone into Schedule II. I don't recall ever seeing one, but also for a while until 1990 or so, there was the possibility of a dilute morphine medicine with three other active ingredients, no more than 1/10 000th morphine base by weight, and/or had four times as much of an isoquinoline opium alkaloid in it . . . that was not the Schedule V Donnagel PG though -- that was an opium product and the morphine content was in fact quite a bit more -- it was actually the atropine in the belladonna part that made it go on prescription on 1. January 1993. There are people who grow their own poppies and belladonna so they can make their own these days.

If you dig Tussy, go dumpster diving with a crew including a lookout -- up to 6 per cent of the syrup sticks to the inside of the bottle and is discarded. Other codeine, dihydrocodeine, dionine and hydrocodone syrups in the United States will do the same thing, but are not as sticky as Tussionex and have a lower viscosity, but those bottles are good too. There is Dilaudid Cough Syrup too -- at one point there were gallon bottles of it, and I have seen one or two litre bottles on shelves more recently. I suppose there is a remote chance that a pharmacy tech will see an expired bottle of Dilaudid Cough Syrup which is three-quarters full because nobody knows about it, and just decides to chuck it in the dustbin as is . . . that is winning the dumpster diver lottery. The only bigger score I could imagine is the even more remote chance that somewhere in the UK there is a dipipanone specialist addiction clinic which has big bottles of their concentrated dipipanone liquids and throws one or a bunch out like that . . ..

There are also analgesic liquids of paracetamol with codeine, codeine, dihydrocodeine, maybe still hydrocodone, and perhaps oxycodone, like a one gallon jug of Tylenol With Codeine Liquid I saw once, and there are or were bottles of Emprin With Codeine and so forth . . ..,

A long time ago, I visited a young lady in Toronto with a shelf with 20 big Paveral bottles lined up on it, which she then proceeded to use Gatorade to wash enough Schoolboy out of to put us both in a kickarse nod . . . reminded me of when I was at university over here back at the beginning and on Thursday afternoons I would go see my Russian professor and we would quaff, eat, or snort everything from Palfium (dextromoramide) to morphine with tea and vodka and then spoon on the couch and then get up later and join some other folks for political intrigue . . . She also seemed to have a lot of nicomorphine around all the time, so later when I had chronic pain requiring something strong, I knew exactly what would work best . . .I also sampled more exotic things like Promedol (trimeperidine) and Amidalgon (dioxyaphetyl butyrate) too -- the latter a big brother of propoxyphene and a good approximation of dimenoxadol . . .

Someone somehow got a big bottle from a pharmacy of the oxycodone liquid one squirts under the tongue with almost a quarter of it left -- it was not even in the dumpster -- it was on the pavement and a raccoon was playing with it . . .

There are in fact three different strengths of methadone liquids used for different things, they come in big bottles, and I am not sure exactly what happens to them, but it just takes a bit of research . .

If there are tramadol liquids used in the United States, it is worth a look -- in Europe, tramadol liquids come in dropper bottles, Continental-style dropper bottles, plain bottles of linctus to pour, and pump bottles which look like soft soap dispensers.

Morphine and hydromorphone liquids for this purpose, and maybe oxycodone these days, tend to come in little plastic shatterproof bottles with calibrated droppers which are usually dispensed as is in unopened boxes to patients. Roxanol 100 is one of these, 30 ml being a common bottle size. If anyone has ever seen the mythical 5 gallon jug or pail of pethidine linctus in hospital or anywhere, that would be fascinating but not a healthy after-dinner drink because of the neurotoxicity of pethidine metabolites.

For this one reason, I really wish that Tusscodin Retard, the nicocodeine equivalent of Tussionex available in Europe, were available in the US and other places where it comes in five-litre bottles to fill prescriptions by decanting it into bottles too, whereas in Europe a prescription is generally filled with a box with a small bottle or blister packs of the medication involved. I could imagine washing out all of that with vodka and making a grapefruit juice screwdriver with it when just getting started with narcotics, also thebacon, acetyldihydrocodeine, nicodicodeine and concentrated DHC syrups as well -- Paracodin Retard comes in a really concentrated form, and the Tusscodin is even stickier than Tussionex, so that would create quite a nod.

As it were, a lot of us saved our bottles, and people who wanted to have some would wash out a bunch of these little bottles with wine, vodka, šljivovica . . . I know someone who collected enough Paracodin syrup and Paracodin ER syrup bottles to actually harvest 65 ml of the syrup, washed it out with carbonated water and filled a big 375 ml tumbler, and she slammed the whole tumbler, with a little bit of vodka and lemon juice mixed in, and I could see her pupils start turning to a pinpoint and the flush starting on her forehead and chest and spreading . . . she smiled and said she felt like Jesus' daughter . . . I know the feeling . . . I mainlined some dihydromorphine at about the same time . . .

So noting all the above -- look in the PDR, nursing manual or whatever -- there are oral liquids of benzodiazepines, antihistamines, anticholinergics, barbiturates, sedatives and other goodies too, and at least at one point there was a Benzedrine liquid too, but I don't think it was very thick like a syrup, it was closer to orange juice in consistency.
 
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