MakaveliTheDon
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A bit of background that might help, I am diagnosed with manic-depressive disorder with bad psychotic episodes and very mild aspergers, both treatment resistant. I have been on every pharmaceutical you can imagine since i was a kid. ritalin, adderall, prozac, xanax, ativan, etc. I have on multiple occasions been to rehab. the first time was for psychosis actually in a psych ward, the second time was for benzo addiction (klonopin), the third was because i committed a violent crime while addicted to opiates. seeing as im treatment resistent, pot became my savior years ago. Pot used to give me very psychedelic effects, but since i have become a 3x a day smoker it now calms me down, and is the only thing keeping me thinking straight. seriously, i remember benzo withdrawals and opiate withdrawals and it feels like im goin through them again in a much less intense way. this doesnt make sense to me since pot isnt addictive, but i am essentially stuck in a psychotic episode without it. a horrible state of dysphoria and irritability , accompanied by paranoia, insomnia, extreme cold touch to air (similair to klonopin WD feeling), and just cant function. i need weed in my life because nothing else can relieve my symptoms other than hard drugs which can actually kill me. Is the bud causing this or like some mental illness?
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