lilylove12749
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- Feb 3, 2018
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Hi so I'm a 20 y/o female around 110 lbs and I took around 300mg of mdma over 4 months ago now. The day after I caught a flu and two days later I was tachycardic with a heart rate of around 130 for 24 hours. This was incredibly scary as I'd never experienced anything like this with my heart before this and when I went to the doctor I was told it was a mix between the comedown and anxiety.
Since this day I have been struggling with a pit in my stomach and a heartbeat that occasionally will beat quite fast. (Normally around 70 bpm but can be 100-110 when I am feeling panicky). I have had all ECG tests and all heart monitoring tests done and the doctors conclude that it is nothing physiological. I also had an MRI scan when I was experiencing dizziness everything came back as negative.
I had a few weeks where I was experiencing very little symptoms and was feeling hopeful about this dark time coming to an end. However two days ago I started getting a very intense anxious feeling in my stomach again which I am thinking may have something to do with my final university exams which are this week.
I have had depression in the past so I am wondering if this increased my predisposition to gaining such anxiety.
All of the anxious feelings are always just me being anxious about having anxious symptoms which keeps the cycle going because I am so desperate to rid myself of these feelings.
Is it possible that I have damaged my brain chemistry by taking this drug and is a full recovery possible? I just want to return to the person that I was before I made this terrible mistake. Will I be like this forever?
Any advice is greatly appreciated.
Thanks
Since this day I have been struggling with a pit in my stomach and a heartbeat that occasionally will beat quite fast. (Normally around 70 bpm but can be 100-110 when I am feeling panicky). I have had all ECG tests and all heart monitoring tests done and the doctors conclude that it is nothing physiological. I also had an MRI scan when I was experiencing dizziness everything came back as negative.
I had a few weeks where I was experiencing very little symptoms and was feeling hopeful about this dark time coming to an end. However two days ago I started getting a very intense anxious feeling in my stomach again which I am thinking may have something to do with my final university exams which are this week.
I have had depression in the past so I am wondering if this increased my predisposition to gaining such anxiety.
All of the anxious feelings are always just me being anxious about having anxious symptoms which keeps the cycle going because I am so desperate to rid myself of these feelings.
Is it possible that I have damaged my brain chemistry by taking this drug and is a full recovery possible? I just want to return to the person that I was before I made this terrible mistake. Will I be like this forever?
Any advice is greatly appreciated.
Thanks