You are very welcome :D and don't worry. If I recall correctly resperidone is not something you will have to take for the rest of your life as I believe it is prescribed or given for acute treatment, though I am not sure of this. So your time will come. Think about it this way: MDMA is very much a set and setting drug, so if you first make sure you're in a good place mentally, your roll is going to be so much better and magical when you do get the chance to experience it.
If you have any further questions about resperidone on its own, not combined with drugs, the mental health part of the forum has some very knowledgeable users that will gladly answer them. This goes for any other questions related to mental health you might have