boxkittycat
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Okay so a couple of months ago i posted a question but I haven't really gone into any details, I've made it seem as though that was the first time I've tried a psychedelic. So here are my experiences.
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...-again-after-a-bad-trip-causing-derealization <------ this was a post i posted months ago but I've decided not to give you guys all the details.So here's all the details
First drug I've ever done were HBWR seeds, first dose was 4 seeds, i started doing psychedelics after my girlfriend dumped me, Idk, i wanted to see a new side of the world, i don't like how I've been introduced to it,but it's been the best decision I've ever made.I could of been on much harder stuff, but I somehow had a infatuation with Acid...
I for one couldn't get a hold of lsd due to legal reasons, so I've done hbwr, first experience was kinda bad,I wasn't in the right mindset, at first i was all giggily but then i was sad at the end, thinking about my ex...
Months later im over her, kinda, I took a larger dose, 8 seeds, best experience ever, I was so happy, but the thought that I only started doing it was because my ex dumped me was stuck in the back of my head,but I didn't let that bring me down, pretty cool experience.
Took some more the next day, but i didnt take them right, so i felt sick, i think i took 4, swallowed it,puked,no trip,i found out the sublingual method works best for me.
so about three weeks later i've done it again,16 seeds, good trip,then for like 3 months i guess i've been taking at least 10-16 seeds each week, or twice a week.
i took over 200 less than 300 seeds, im on my third bag, 100 HBWR seeds..
Lets reverse, i ran out of my second bag of seeds right before graduation, I graduate.Fast forward, im asking my druggy lesbian friend does she know where to get lsd or shrooms,she told me she's been looking for them no luck...And here's where I fuck up.
She asked if i wanted to smoke k2, and im over here thinking it's just like weed but weaker....NOPE that shit can kill you, i smoked it with her and I was tripping hard, for 9 hours i think idk time was so distorted, i lost touch with reality all together, what was going on in my pov wasnt what was going on in my friends pov. I woke up naked in the emergency room.
And I was surprisingly reallllllly happy for the next week and a half.After that I thought I was done.
Months later,after the summer,september 30th 2:35(yes I remember the time, First time i dropped an lsd analogue)
I dropped 1p-lsd over skype with my gay friend, he left, it wasnt kicking in, i took half 50ug
3 hours later everythings good, musics good, i feel like im literally in heaven.
but i decided to take the other half as im tripping, and like 30 minutes later im scared(okay I blame psyching myself out thinking "What if i took too much for the first time, psychedsubstance/youtuber said if youre a bit anxious only take 50ug blah blah blah") And no matter what I thought of I wasnt calming myself down, i wanted to avoid the trip,but it was like my conscious self was forcing me to face my fears and not take the easy way out. i couldnt calm down and my mom figured out i was on it, and yelled at me, my dad too, they havent made the trip bad per se, but they made it worse, they told me to drink milk, i drunk a whole gallon, the trip mellowed out after that,(I puked the milk out btw)
And literally for the next 25 hours i was still pretty high, and i couldnt sleep.but I managed to sleep...The bad trip wasnt bad by what i saw , the melting walls or time distortion didnt bother me much, but my headspace made it really bad
After that, I had derealization 3 days later,it was an on and off thing,that gotten worse overtime, i stopped drugs cold turkey( except nicotine, i vape nicotine,forgot to mention that, i quit and im getting the worse headaches and mood swings ever)I had the DP/DR for about 6 and a half months.
I had therapy, they finally suggested clonazepam, and that's when i stopped feeling most of my DP/DR, so im like meh, i did hbwr three times after that, it did not affect my dp/dr at all, but up until I smoked weed I had the worse episode of it,Im not sure if it was the k2 that ruined my weed experiences or the 1p-ld, or if the k2 induced my DP/DR or the 1p-lsd. I heard weed being different after both so Idk which one fucked it up for me.
I also had a cat-scan, they said they've found nothing abnormal, i mean, if I got a cat-scan and they find nothing wrong would that mean i'd be okay to take psyches more, i took the hbwr weeks after they said nothing was wrong and i was just fine, it's just that thc makes me anxious, but not anything that affects my 5-ht receptors.It only seems as though when my cannibus receptors are triggered that's when im real paranoid and scared.And weed did nothing to me before the k2.And i didnt do weed between the k2 and lsd so idk.
Do you think its safe? i mean if i was predisposed to mental illness wouldnt my neurologist know?At first they said i could possibly have psychosis but i have no other symptoms than unreality.And they said there wasnt anything abnormal with my brain(they dont think i have psychosis now).....what do you think? if theres any errors sorry im just typing im not reading over this.
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...-again-after-a-bad-trip-causing-derealization <------ this was a post i posted months ago but I've decided not to give you guys all the details.So here's all the details
First drug I've ever done were HBWR seeds, first dose was 4 seeds, i started doing psychedelics after my girlfriend dumped me, Idk, i wanted to see a new side of the world, i don't like how I've been introduced to it,but it's been the best decision I've ever made.I could of been on much harder stuff, but I somehow had a infatuation with Acid...
I for one couldn't get a hold of lsd due to legal reasons, so I've done hbwr, first experience was kinda bad,I wasn't in the right mindset, at first i was all giggily but then i was sad at the end, thinking about my ex...
Months later im over her, kinda, I took a larger dose, 8 seeds, best experience ever, I was so happy, but the thought that I only started doing it was because my ex dumped me was stuck in the back of my head,but I didn't let that bring me down, pretty cool experience.
Took some more the next day, but i didnt take them right, so i felt sick, i think i took 4, swallowed it,puked,no trip,i found out the sublingual method works best for me.
so about three weeks later i've done it again,16 seeds, good trip,then for like 3 months i guess i've been taking at least 10-16 seeds each week, or twice a week.
i took over 200 less than 300 seeds, im on my third bag, 100 HBWR seeds..
Lets reverse, i ran out of my second bag of seeds right before graduation, I graduate.Fast forward, im asking my druggy lesbian friend does she know where to get lsd or shrooms,she told me she's been looking for them no luck...And here's where I fuck up.
She asked if i wanted to smoke k2, and im over here thinking it's just like weed but weaker....NOPE that shit can kill you, i smoked it with her and I was tripping hard, for 9 hours i think idk time was so distorted, i lost touch with reality all together, what was going on in my pov wasnt what was going on in my friends pov. I woke up naked in the emergency room.
And I was surprisingly reallllllly happy for the next week and a half.After that I thought I was done.
Months later,after the summer,september 30th 2:35(yes I remember the time, First time i dropped an lsd analogue)
I dropped 1p-lsd over skype with my gay friend, he left, it wasnt kicking in, i took half 50ug
3 hours later everythings good, musics good, i feel like im literally in heaven.
but i decided to take the other half as im tripping, and like 30 minutes later im scared(okay I blame psyching myself out thinking "What if i took too much for the first time, psychedsubstance/youtuber said if youre a bit anxious only take 50ug blah blah blah") And no matter what I thought of I wasnt calming myself down, i wanted to avoid the trip,but it was like my conscious self was forcing me to face my fears and not take the easy way out. i couldnt calm down and my mom figured out i was on it, and yelled at me, my dad too, they havent made the trip bad per se, but they made it worse, they told me to drink milk, i drunk a whole gallon, the trip mellowed out after that,(I puked the milk out btw)
And literally for the next 25 hours i was still pretty high, and i couldnt sleep.but I managed to sleep...The bad trip wasnt bad by what i saw , the melting walls or time distortion didnt bother me much, but my headspace made it really bad
After that, I had derealization 3 days later,it was an on and off thing,that gotten worse overtime, i stopped drugs cold turkey( except nicotine, i vape nicotine,forgot to mention that, i quit and im getting the worse headaches and mood swings ever)I had the DP/DR for about 6 and a half months.
I had therapy, they finally suggested clonazepam, and that's when i stopped feeling most of my DP/DR, so im like meh, i did hbwr three times after that, it did not affect my dp/dr at all, but up until I smoked weed I had the worse episode of it,Im not sure if it was the k2 that ruined my weed experiences or the 1p-ld, or if the k2 induced my DP/DR or the 1p-lsd. I heard weed being different after both so Idk which one fucked it up for me.
I also had a cat-scan, they said they've found nothing abnormal, i mean, if I got a cat-scan and they find nothing wrong would that mean i'd be okay to take psyches more, i took the hbwr weeks after they said nothing was wrong and i was just fine, it's just that thc makes me anxious, but not anything that affects my 5-ht receptors.It only seems as though when my cannibus receptors are triggered that's when im real paranoid and scared.And weed did nothing to me before the k2.And i didnt do weed between the k2 and lsd so idk.
Do you think its safe? i mean if i was predisposed to mental illness wouldnt my neurologist know?At first they said i could possibly have psychosis but i have no other symptoms than unreality.And they said there wasnt anything abnormal with my brain(they dont think i have psychosis now).....what do you think? if theres any errors sorry im just typing im not reading over this.
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