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Bluelighter
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What is moderation, and with which criteria do we decide?
I think alcohol is what's waiting for us at the end of the black tar road.I don't really believe in the twelver's philosophy of one is too much. From time to time, I get an insufferable itch to scratch my opiate receptors, and from a rarer time to time, I indulge that. Usually I wind up OK. I think it's a matter of self-control. That being said, I'm a degenerate alcoholic at this point and can't really control myself once I scratch that itch, so I guess it all depends on your individual situation. I think in our hearts we know whether or not we can take whatever situation to the edge, it's just the addicted lizard-brain that tries to tell us otherwise. Reflect, and then do what you will, I guess. For most, though, who'd consider themselves in recovery, you've come a long way out of a sticky swamp, why risk it?
I think alcohol is what's waiting for us at the end of the black tar road.
I've still managed sensible sessions where I have eaten and called it a day at around 11pm in the past month.
Alcohol is the drug I struggle to moderate the most. Cannabis too I seem to have a permanent high tolerance.
99.9999999% cant do the moderation thing after addiction.
Is it worth the gamble? I dont think so
Now i don't like alcohol... never did. My thing was opiates ( and many other things...) Anyways i am in the 12 step program and they tell me i can never drink alcohol again either. I tell them what the fuck, i have always handled my drinking and always can....
After one or two drinks i can say enough when i feel like it. Problem is when i drink i think to my self... what a shit drug. I wish i had opiates right now, i am much more willing to relapse on other drugs after a few drinks. It's kind of like playing with fire.
It's like that for me as well; but with other drugs I can moderate them but then sometimes would binge on them in the past when I was using them like alcohol. So I no longer drink and I do not hang out with friends who I did drink a lot with or who I used to be close with but eventually our friendship became mainly just about drinking or doing social things that revolved around drinking alcohol like going to bars, parties, or even live music events/concerts where we would drink.I can moderate some drugs. Other drugs I can't.
That's a really good example. Addiction treatment people and drug counselors shit on the rational/analytic ability and the mind all the time, reducing thinking to merely a process or rationalizing or excusing problematic/harmful drug use. But as someone once told me, that's bullshit. You'd got a brain - Use it!