I was a full blown heroin addict for a long time. we all know the pleasure goes after we become addicts. All heroin did for me was give he a short rush, and make me feel normal. THATS IT. before I was an addict, I took percs. they made me feel great. I would stay up all night and play video games with a smile on my face. but a year later all I get is a nice rush and a normal feeling.
so we get clean and relapse. why? what majes us want to go back to the hell? I know that I only get a nice rush, and I know that I have likea 90% chance of returning to full blown addiction. but the heroin has changed my brain chemistry that EVEN after being clean I am miserable. I do everything - exercise, read, etc. I am still miserable. that's why I chose suboxone and I really is helping me.
I just don't know why I kept going back to 'one more time' when it costs a lot of money and only gives me a rush and a glow. I really don't
so we get clean and relapse. why? what majes us want to go back to the hell? I know that I only get a nice rush, and I know that I have likea 90% chance of returning to full blown addiction. but the heroin has changed my brain chemistry that EVEN after being clean I am miserable. I do everything - exercise, read, etc. I am still miserable. that's why I chose suboxone and I really is helping me.
I just don't know why I kept going back to 'one more time' when it costs a lot of money and only gives me a rush and a glow. I really don't