Hey,
As I might have recovered from the ap's I had to take during my hospital stay (very unnecessary). I was prescribed some Ritalin 10mg during the "withdrawal" phase. I know what you might read now might sound very stupid or irrational. I think probably due the anhedonia,reduction in intelligence,inituation,desperation,lack of dopamine, not knowing something else, did I cope with taking 3x of Them. My writing now might seem not readable,etc bcs I cant fking catch a breath and experience palpitations so no time to come back and correct what I wrote. Holy fuck everytime did I Just took these polls and experience chest pagina,heart palpitations,headaches,pale skin,insomnia,robot personality. Its been for that for 1.5 years. I also have been only restless on them. I wonder how I didn't end up having a heart attack yet (you'd swear to already drop dead after all these years, yet I'm still alive).
I know my topics/posts might not seem understanble but I Just cope with Ritalin die the anhedonia I felt from ap's while Just neglexting my body. Aaahhrrg I would like to correct my text and make it sound readable but the lack of ozygen in my heart make it difficult to relax. Luckily the Ritalin is wearing off.
Holy fuck 2 years being home (doing nothing) while being 21 years in a few months
As I might have recovered from the ap's I had to take during my hospital stay (very unnecessary). I was prescribed some Ritalin 10mg during the "withdrawal" phase. I know what you might read now might sound very stupid or irrational. I think probably due the anhedonia,reduction in intelligence,inituation,desperation,lack of dopamine, not knowing something else, did I cope with taking 3x of Them. My writing now might seem not readable,etc bcs I cant fking catch a breath and experience palpitations so no time to come back and correct what I wrote. Holy fuck everytime did I Just took these polls and experience chest pagina,heart palpitations,headaches,pale skin,insomnia,robot personality. Its been for that for 1.5 years. I also have been only restless on them. I wonder how I didn't end up having a heart attack yet (you'd swear to already drop dead after all these years, yet I'm still alive).
I know my topics/posts might not seem understanble but I Just cope with Ritalin die the anhedonia I felt from ap's while Just neglexting my body. Aaahhrrg I would like to correct my text and make it sound readable but the lack of ozygen in my heart make it difficult to relax. Luckily the Ritalin is wearing off.
Holy fuck 2 years being home (doing nothing) while being 21 years in a few months