Hello everyone,
I came across this forum a while back after a failed attempt to quit Suboxone. I figured that I would actually join and ask for help this time and here I am!
I have a long history of addiction. I got hooked on Speed, Ecstasy, Alcohol and weed when I was 16 and at the age of 22 I was in Rehab. I did 3 months of Primary residential care rehab and went on to do another 7 months in secondary care and then a half way house. Most people in rehab were either in there for Heroin, cocaine or alcohol abuse and so I was the odd one out. I relapsed with a group of friends who were all ex-Heroin users and because I'd never used the drug I stupidly thought that perhaps I could use it and not get addicted! I know - totally insane right?
I used for 6 months and then got a methadone script and got clean by going cold turkey and switching to alcohol. I got into a total mess but finally cleaned up after another year or so and moved back to Wales where I have family. I moved back to Wales in 1999 and although my alcohol problems resurfaced, I dealt with that and am 6 years sober. I have a girlfriend and we have been together for 8 years. She stood by me through the alcohol abuse and it nearly broke her. Around 3 years ago I stupidly dabbled with Heroin again after thinking I was safe from it. I'm a binge user and I went on a 3 week bender that resulted in my having to go and see a drug worker and get a Suboxone script.
My girlfriend knows nothing of this and I know, I'm a ****. I got down from 24mg suboxone to just 0.2mg and tried to quit. I thought it would be easy because my drug worker told me that people quit from 2mg with little to no side effects. After 5 days of hell I started to wonder what was going on and why I wasn't feeling any better and I found this forum. That was a year ago and I've been back on the Suboxone since then. I'm at 2mg now and getting ready to drop as low as possible and gather as much info as possible to help me successfully quit this time.
Thanks to everyone who's posted about their problems - without you, i'd feel totally alone.