meprobamatedowned
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- Apr 20, 2021
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Hello blue lighters,
I've been a poly-drug addict for 5 years, did rehab 4 times (but was fired the last time in december), quit my job, and recently i became a lot more self conscious. I quitted GBL which i was using 24/7 and i lowered alcohol. I stopped going to parties, to focus on my studies that i kinda left behind these past 6 months (meaning i never went to any class or lecture). This means i don't see my friends so much since then because it triggers me instantly, so i feel lonely, isolated.
For the last week, i have only been using my daily 20mg of prazepam for alcohol tapering, a few shots of whisky or rhum here and there (no more than 3 or 4), a little cannabis at night, and 2-FMA all day around 30mg 3 or 4 times a day. I keep everything noted in my journal. (oh and about 50mg cyamemazine and 15mg alimemazine for sleep)
My problem is: if i quit the 2-FMA, i'm never going to be ready for finals. But all the doctors and my surroundings are telling me to put my health first, and i trust them that this is the right move. But i really don't want to let university go again, it is the only thing that is keeping me together at the moment, and i am seriously concerned that they won't have me back next year considering i wasn't there the whole semester.
I'm asking for advices, experiences, insights, anything....
I've been a poly-drug addict for 5 years, did rehab 4 times (but was fired the last time in december), quit my job, and recently i became a lot more self conscious. I quitted GBL which i was using 24/7 and i lowered alcohol. I stopped going to parties, to focus on my studies that i kinda left behind these past 6 months (meaning i never went to any class or lecture). This means i don't see my friends so much since then because it triggers me instantly, so i feel lonely, isolated.
For the last week, i have only been using my daily 20mg of prazepam for alcohol tapering, a few shots of whisky or rhum here and there (no more than 3 or 4), a little cannabis at night, and 2-FMA all day around 30mg 3 or 4 times a day. I keep everything noted in my journal. (oh and about 50mg cyamemazine and 15mg alimemazine for sleep)
My problem is: if i quit the 2-FMA, i'm never going to be ready for finals. But all the doctors and my surroundings are telling me to put my health first, and i trust them that this is the right move. But i really don't want to let university go again, it is the only thing that is keeping me together at the moment, and i am seriously concerned that they won't have me back next year considering i wasn't there the whole semester.
I'm asking for advices, experiences, insights, anything....