Storms
Bluelighter
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- Aug 28, 2013
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hi everyone, so the last few times i've tripped on shrooms and lsd i started getting violent imagery in my head and an urge to hurt myself or my friends. normally i would never hurt anyone, or even think about it, whether i was tripping or not, so i found these thoughts pretty disturbing. it was like all the empathy had been sucked out of me and i was now replaced with someone evil. i started making growling noises at my boyfriend just cause i felt like it
sure it could be demonic possession or something but i feel like it's more my hidden violent urges (which everyone has) coming to the surface. i have no issue with confronting the fact that there's a dark side to me that can do bad things, but damn, shit is scary still lol. anyways after the trip wore off i was mostly back to normal. it was strange because usually tripping makes me more empathetic.
has anyone else experienced this? what do you think causes it?
also as a note i've been diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder and i often get intrusive violent images but it's always other people committing violence against me, never me being the violent one. which is why i found this switch unnerving. i would say i have high empathy, i can feel what other people feel most of the time, and i would never hurt anyone or anything. i don't even eat meat lol.
i've been wondering if i also have ocd or something since it's often comorbid with stpd, since people with ocd have thoughts like this.
anyways thanks for reading guys
sure it could be demonic possession or something but i feel like it's more my hidden violent urges (which everyone has) coming to the surface. i have no issue with confronting the fact that there's a dark side to me that can do bad things, but damn, shit is scary still lol. anyways after the trip wore off i was mostly back to normal. it was strange because usually tripping makes me more empathetic.
has anyone else experienced this? what do you think causes it?
also as a note i've been diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder and i often get intrusive violent images but it's always other people committing violence against me, never me being the violent one. which is why i found this switch unnerving. i would say i have high empathy, i can feel what other people feel most of the time, and i would never hurt anyone or anything. i don't even eat meat lol.
i've been wondering if i also have ocd or something since it's often comorbid with stpd, since people with ocd have thoughts like this.
anyways thanks for reading guys