Perplexity
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Nov 19, 2008
- Messages
- 63
Yeah so I'm looking for help. I've been abusing opioids for the last 6-7 months without stopping completely using lots of OP 80s, canadian OC 80s, Roxys and my favorite of all 40mg oxymorphone HCL and I'm DEFINITELY physically addicted to the point of being too much of a loser to go through the withdrawals. But even worse is I'm so obsessed with these drugs. I love absolutely everything about them. I love how they're not toxic to the body's organs, I love the relief from social anxiety, the munchies and the energy I get just to be adventurous and do things with my life. I love how they make me a better programmer (what I do for a living). And no matter what it feels like I'm still going to love them.
But this scares me because I feel like I'll be addicted for life. I don't want to be, but I know how obsessed I am with them and I don't know how to deal with it. Can anyone else relate to this? Any advice? Sorry for cutting this short I'm on an iPad and it's annoying to type on this lol
But this scares me because I feel like I'll be addicted for life. I don't want to be, but I know how obsessed I am with them and I don't know how to deal with it. Can anyone else relate to this? Any advice? Sorry for cutting this short I'm on an iPad and it's annoying to type on this lol