Lightning-Nl
Bluelighter
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It's no secret how deadly cigarettes are.
We've known about it since the late 1920's. It's been taught, over and over to everyone. There is no longer a single person out there who's oblivious to the dangers of smoking. And yet, if that person still decides to smoke. Knowing fully well just how damaging to it will be to their health - isn't that their decision to make? Cigarettes are deadly, yes. But you know what else they do for me? They make me just a bit more satisfied with my life. Smoking makes me happy - yeah, ya know what? Part of that happiness is due to the fact that Nicotine is releasing 'happy-chemicals' in my brain, but the other part of it is because it's who I am.
Life is hard. Everyone knows that. I've had my fair share of troubles in my life. I went through some nasty shit that no child should have to go through. As a teen - I still have little grasp on who I am. I literally feel like I have no identity. And I know this may seem a little odd - but smoking is what's getting me through it.
Smoking is the one consistent 'safety' that I have in my life, and while it's very unhealthy - it's bringing me back from hell. Having that one small consistency in my life... knowing that I can feel some sort of routine in my day; gives me hope... hope that I can be a person one day.
And I know all of that may sound cheesy and dumb, but it's the truth. I know just exactly how deadly cigarettes are. I saw first hand what cigarettes did to my grandfather who died of congestive heart failure and yet, I still choose to do it.
Isn't that MY choice to make?
We've known about it since the late 1920's. It's been taught, over and over to everyone. There is no longer a single person out there who's oblivious to the dangers of smoking. And yet, if that person still decides to smoke. Knowing fully well just how damaging to it will be to their health - isn't that their decision to make? Cigarettes are deadly, yes. But you know what else they do for me? They make me just a bit more satisfied with my life. Smoking makes me happy - yeah, ya know what? Part of that happiness is due to the fact that Nicotine is releasing 'happy-chemicals' in my brain, but the other part of it is because it's who I am.
Life is hard. Everyone knows that. I've had my fair share of troubles in my life. I went through some nasty shit that no child should have to go through. As a teen - I still have little grasp on who I am. I literally feel like I have no identity. And I know this may seem a little odd - but smoking is what's getting me through it.
Smoking is the one consistent 'safety' that I have in my life, and while it's very unhealthy - it's bringing me back from hell. Having that one small consistency in my life... knowing that I can feel some sort of routine in my day; gives me hope... hope that I can be a person one day.
And I know all of that may sound cheesy and dumb, but it's the truth. I know just exactly how deadly cigarettes are. I saw first hand what cigarettes did to my grandfather who died of congestive heart failure and yet, I still choose to do it.
Isn't that MY choice to make?