So it has hit me hard tonight guys . . I can put it to the back of my mind mind n pretend its not going to happen but it really is goin to happen n seeing you guys all agreeing that it is going to kill me and soon . Its probably what i needed my eyes opening. But as an addict in active addiction quite heavily so atm . So what do i do now. Its gone 3am here now. In 6/7 hours it starts all over again. But my situation is the same.
But on the flip side iam so not ready to die not yet not now.
Im thinking n cant switch off . What would keep me away replace thr void that cracks filling. An with it being payday tomoz evening it can be put into action but what i dont know....
Been ordered a hot bike of a guy i know nearly new 250cc sports road bike for £120 ,with alot of wasteland behind my new place n trails for miles I'm so tempted . The rush from riding beats any drug imo. That could be the key to breaking the cycle even if i only have it a few months its changing habbits n how i think. Hmmm im very tempted