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I use drugs to cope with reality

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Theresalwaystomorrow

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I cannot handle life without drugs. If I am not using drugs, I fail at life. I cannot do anything in life while completely sober. I fucking hate life so much. I hate society, I hate people, I hate everything you can possibly name. I have a serious chemical I'm balances in my brain, I have serious hormonal problems from using anabloic steroids and not being able to pct right because of being thrown in jail. I hate life so much I do not really want to be alive usually. I need to be on HEAVY narcotics until my chemical and hormonal imbalances are fixed. There is no reason or excuse for a human being to feel the way I feel. Heroin and meth are a NECESSITY to be used in my situation, if I can live without causing harm to society on those drugs, them there is no doubt any drugs combination could and should be used for me. Otherwise I AM a danger to myself and society, if I am not on hard drugs 100% of the time, until my chemical and hormonal I'm balances are fixed. There is absolutely NO drug in the history of the world that would be as dangerous for me to be on, as I am completely sober. There are no exceptions, if meth, heroin, high doses of anabloic steroids, Xanax, whatever else are to be used for my situation. There is NO drug that should be kept out of the mix. It is strictly DANGEROUS as it can get for me to be sober.
 
There isn't one drug out there, that has ever been created in the history of civilization, that would be more dangerous as if I am sober. There is NO excuse for a human being to feel the way I do. I GUARANTEE nobody in the history of man has ever felt worse than I do sober. There's no possible way I could be a productive human to society feeling this way. It's like being dope sick x100. You pussies think you have it hard during withdrawal? Try feeling the way I do 100% of the time. You would've killed yourself and others 5 years ago. STFU about your bullshit heroin withdrawals, I've done it before and it's nothing, piece of cake compared to how I feel 100% of the time when I'm sober.
 
I don't want to hear anybody say they "know how I feel" no you don't, otherwise society would've had another mass homicide on their hands a long time ago. I absolutely should be on a PERMANENT IV drop of any drug of my choice, as many as I can choose. Idc about overdose, my life sober is worse than death x100, no human being has ever felt the way I do that hasn't committed a mass homicide.
 
May I ask how old you are? Not knowing you're age, I'm thinking maybe you're dealing with severe angst issues, that might resolve with age/experience. Then again I could be wrong too.
 
Theresalwaystomorrow said:
You pussies think you have it hard during withdrawal? Try feeling the way I do 100% of the time. You would've killed yourself and others 5 years ago. STFU about your bullshit heroin withdrawals, I've done it before and it's nothing, piece of cake compared to how I feel 100% of the time when I'm sober.
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I can understand that you have problems and are hurting, but to belittle the problems of others most likely won't get you many replies..
You might want to check out our Recovery Support forums, including The Dark Side and Mental Health https://www.bluelight.org/xf/forums/#recovery-support.268 as Basic Drug Discussion is about basic harm reduction questions :)
 
jai guru deva said:
May I ask how old you are? Not knowing you're age, I'm thinking maybe you're dealing with severe angst issues, that might resolve with age/experience. Then again I could be wrong too.
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No, it's gotten worse with age. I'm 25, im positive I said it in the post. Society just sucks. Maybe it's just the USA. I hope so.
 
Welcome to the club op i also do drugs for one reason or another i just took my last bit of codeine and when it kicks in i should be buzzing but.. I will probably bein wd and lose the will to live all over again ive only got myself to blame but i haven't had the most stress free life to say the least.
 
I'm not doubting that you are truly miserable and are fed up with "life", but are you trying to tell me you have it worse then people in Somalia who dont know when their next meal is coming from, or people who have lost limbs and got diagnosed with horrible diseases?

We've all had our fair share of problems OP, but as kleinerkiffer said, there is no point in belittling other peopes issues.

Maybe your life is so bad because your constantly looking for attention or a pity party.
 
kleinerkiffer said:
I can understand that you have problems and are hurting, but to belittle the problems of others most likely won't get you many replies..
You might want to check out our Recovery Support forums, including The Dark Side and Mental Health https://www.bluelight.org/xf/forums/#recovery-support.268 as Basic Drug Discussion is about basic harm reduction questions :)
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How. How did you stay so calm to say all of that! like how.
oewch i'm hungry.
thank you for your ??.
i liked it ♡

op try to pretend smile and see your pretty.
okay.
 
Trev26 said:
I'm not doubting that you are truly miserable and are fed up with "life", but are you trying to tell me you have it worse then people in Somalia who dont know when their next meal is coming from, or people who have lost limbs and got diagnosed with horrible diseases?

We've all had our fair share of problems OP, but as kleinerkiffer said, there is no point in belittling other peopes issues.

Maybe your life is so bad because your constantly looking for attention or a pity party.
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Every jackass brings up situations like that. Those people garnish sympathy for their stuff. Because the world is 99% people that are mentally impaired af, many people's situations do not garnish sympathy. So yes, I absolutely have it worse than those people. Because those people can just sit back and get free money pretty much. Or those kids in waaaaaay overpopulated and underdeveloped countries get adopted by some rich family in a way overdeveloped country. But I'll say that the USA does probably sufk worse than other counties, and I am working on getting out asap. Worst country in the world.
There's no argument with me about any of this. These are facts. If what you said was true, everything would've gotten better in my life over the years. It hasn't, which means I am right. I don't want to give an effort anymore, there's no point.
 
And in any event, anything the USA government tells you is a straight-out lie. People don't have it bad like that in Somalia. At least most don't. I know people from Somalia that day that it's a great country and it is NOT what the USA portrays it as. You've all been fed these dumbass lies by the USA, and it's so easy to see through them, I don't know how everybody doesn't.
Everything everybody has taught you, all the way down to the three main religions of Christianity, Muslim, and Judaism is a lie. The only real religions are paganism, the religion I believe in is asatru. There is no God up there that wants to force you to pray day in and day out, and go to church 3 times a week. God just wants everybody to do the right thing, as often as possible. You'll know damn well if you deserve to go to heaven or hell based on your decisions. So yeah, I'm not gonna sit here and believe that Somalia and all these other countries are just so poor and going hungry, when I know people from those countries that say otherwise.
 
Capitalism is a lie that doesn't work, only type of econmy and governemt that works is socialism. The German military and government were not what people made them out to be, neither was communist Russia. America, is the evil nation through all of it. Terrible horrible place.
 
If you do not believe that the USA is horrible, look at it's judicial and prison system. It is the single most disgustingly immoral thing to ever come into existence, period. It's a privatized business, that makes money by ruining people's lives and placing charges on people that are not actually truthful charges. It's entirely and incredibly corrupt, ruining people's lives for the sake of generating revenue. If you do not believe that the usa's legal/prison system is the most immoral thing on Earth rn, then go away and go take your bullshit elsewhere.
 
There also is zero good reasons in the world, why alcohol is legal, along with some of these hugely destructive psychiatric medications, but stuff such as methamphetamine are not. I don't wanna hear how bad you get on meth. All you have to do is, not take 10x or more of a clinical dose. Try making a half a gram last at least 4 days. Then tell me how ridiculously twacked out you were. You're simplys using way too big of doses. I was first given meth at 12 YEARS OLD. granted, I didn't use it again until 19-20, but I am 25 years old now, and I have been using meth consistently since 20. I have all my teeth, they are more or less in moderate or pretty good condition, I do not have brain damage from using meth, I never stay up more than 2 days at a time, make sure I eat and drink fluids when taking meth, and I NEVER take more than a quarter gram in one day. That's all you have to do when u take meth.
Crack on the other hand, is a drug that was specifically created to destroy communities. I have not and will not ever do crack.
 
Trev26 said:
I'm not doubting that you are truly miserable and are fed up with "life", but are you trying to tell me you have it worse then people in Somalia who dont know when their next meal is coming from, or people who have lost limbs and got diagnosed with horrible diseases?

We've all had our fair share of problems OP, but as kleinerkiffer said, there is no point in belittling other peopes issues.

Maybe your life is so bad because your constantly looking for attention or a pity party.
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What do people in Somolia have to do with this are you a troll
 
Theresalwaystomorrow said:
Every jackass brings up situations like that. Those people garnish sympathy for their stuff. Because the world is 99% people that are mentally impaired af, many people's situations do not garnish sympathy. So yes, I absolutely have it worse than those people. Because those people can just sit back and get free money pretty much. Or those kids in waaaaaay overpopulated and underdeveloped countries get adopted by some rich family in a way overdeveloped country. But I'll say that the USA does probably sufk worse than other counties, and I am working on getting out asap. Worst country in the world.
There's no argument with me about any of this. These are facts. If what you said was true, everything would've gotten better in my life over the years. It hasn't, which means I am right. I don't want to give an effort anymore, there's no point.
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its not just me then i love it when someone has to be mr sensitive and play the africa card yes its terrible if i was rich i would give half of it to chsrity and make sure the charity was legit..but im not rich i live in a shitty house well not shitty but i hate it ive been here to long i wanna move out get my own place become independent but the way my life is atm that is not feasible this isn't a pity party its me offloading my energy and thoughts as no one knows about my drug use they know i take them but not how much i appreciate the fact i can talk to strangers in the same situation some smart
Trev26 said:
I'm not doubting that you are truly miserable and are fed up with "life", but are you trying to tell me you have it worse then people in Somalia who dont know when their next meal is coming from, or people who have lost limbs and got diagnosed with horrible diseases?

We've all had our fair share of problems OP, but as kleinerkiffer said, there is no point in belittling other peopes issues.

Maybe your life is so bad because your constantly looking for attention or a pity party.
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Some not
 
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