LSDMDMA&
Bluelighter
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- Feb 6, 2010
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i tried to die again today. it didnt work, it was an honest attempt and now im not sure how i am going to hide it and honestly where i go from here.
i had regrets for a second after the first one but then i became even more sad and kept going
i may not try again until at least after i get back from philly next week but i dont know. the fucked up thing is that i made sure to take my suboxone last nigbt because i knew if i didnt i wasnt going to stay clean but i knew that i wasnt going to make it past today without trying again.
i tried to cut my jugular then when that didnt work i switched sides and tried to hit.the carotid. it looks like what happens when dudes get stabbed in prison right now on my neck, ive got a few long gashes, the biggest one is about 2-3 inches long by a half inch wide...that i may superglue together so i dont have ti go to the ER and explain what happened because since it didnt work i at least want to make it to the penguin game next week.
im not sure if this is even appropriate for i here cause i never post in here..
i had regrets for a second after the first one but then i became even more sad and kept going
i may not try again until at least after i get back from philly next week but i dont know. the fucked up thing is that i made sure to take my suboxone last nigbt because i knew if i didnt i wasnt going to stay clean but i knew that i wasnt going to make it past today without trying again.
i tried to cut my jugular then when that didnt work i switched sides and tried to hit.the carotid. it looks like what happens when dudes get stabbed in prison right now on my neck, ive got a few long gashes, the biggest one is about 2-3 inches long by a half inch wide...that i may superglue together so i dont have ti go to the ER and explain what happened because since it didnt work i at least want to make it to the penguin game next week.
im not sure if this is even appropriate for i here cause i never post in here..