When I first was introduced to meth, it literally became the love of my life, i was convinced it was the best effing thing out there, and i stayed in love with it for years, even tho i weighed 83 pounds (literally skin and bones, gross sunken in face, and looked like i was sick and dying basically is what people told me) i had destroyed so many relationships/friendships with everyone that i still love to this day. the drug eventually convinces you that all you ever need is meth, and the supplier.
it took me losing the one job that fuck i didnt think would fire me ever (and then proceed to not have a job for a year and half or so), and they didnt want to but i couldnt stop getting fucked up on the job in the bathroom for fuck sakes, ruining my relationship with any of my family members, getting others hooked on it and watching them ruin themselves over it/or got killed by it/locked up in prison for ten to twenty years with no hope for parole at all, losing multiple homes, ruined my looks with picking and etc, ruined my lungs even further than accidentally mustard gassing myself did ( and i wouldnt have ever had that experience if i wasnt tweaking for a week plus), almost died due to significant dehydration to the point my temperature skyrocketed to 110 degrees (*F) within ten to fifteen mins all of a sudden when i was getting ready for work (at the job i later in life got shit canned from) ((like literally could barely open my eyes and if i could it was for a second literally all i could see was a red/orange blurred vision of everything and that was fucking crazy and kinda of scary in all honesty)) for over an hour (fried my brain pretty stupidly bad man, i couldnt understand or speak or think of names or words or how to do the simpliest everyday things very well at all) and then the doctors (who was just astonished and completely amazed that i lived there all it and woke up fucking like literally 24 hours later damn near, actually like 22 hours but close enough) effed up and threw to much ice and etc on me to cool me down that my temp dropped to like 90 degrees in five mins and then apparently your body goes into shock i learned... lol(... not very funny but i laugh at my own misfortunes), n also now my significant other is locked up in fed prison for five to ten years, and i now have a record and before in life never ever was so stupid to fuck up and get caught or in trouble to the point that i am looking at mandatory minimum of three years to max of 70 years in state prison. and also had the pleasant experience of having itty bitty tiny barely visible shards of glass (from a stupid light bulb that was apparently forgotten about in my laundry and got washed with all my work uniforms and every day clothes in every centimeter of my body (literally) and had glass coming out of my skin for nearly a year straight (it was an extreme horrific case of this type of indicent the nurse n doctor said) fuck never ever want to do that again in my life!!
meth is the best goddamn liar/con artist, and its a fucking bitch to get away from too, but its worse the devil man i think personally. trust me i know how it is to think that you wont ever get caught or in THAT much trouble or come that close with death over it, i thought it was okay if i did died at the time until it was actually bout to happen, and then i was like 'goddamn, i dont even know what the fuck is going on or why i am bout to effing die, i cant die till i at least learn the reasoning behind this!' (the next day was one of the best upbeat day of my life (after being cleared to go home that is), near death experiences (my own) actually give me an amazing optimistic positive outlook on life i have learned.) but when it comes to being a addicted, and especially being in the 'dope world' or 'dope game' is what it is called around here, its not a 'If' at all, it is a 'When' for either death or jail/prison. but i know i fucking hate meth cause of how horrible and how much a fucked up false/fake world you all of a sudden are living in and its hard to see/hear reasoning or see what is actually real or wrong with everything.