gallardo3000
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- Mar 1, 2016
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Hey guys, I'm sure this is a very common thing to feel, but as every experience is different for every individual I thought I might share it, because it's been kinda giving me a hard time for a while now...
I believe psychedelic experiences do expand your consciousness and help you understand. I know it. Thing is, I have used LSD several times, but since the last time I don't seem to be able to really "go back to normal". It would be hard for me to explain the experience as a whole (I'm sure you understand). It felt like I suddenly woke up from a dream. All the things I considered common or normal (specifically human bodies and the human society) seemed to loose their importance. Or better said, they became the most illogical thing to me. It suddenly hit me, we are nothing but animals. I mean, we are just a small part of the world, which holds thousands and thousands forms of existence. How and why did the human species come to think they were superior to the rest? Why did we loose this contact I've been feeling towards everything nature is? I mean living things, dead things, it's no different. We will die, but I know that is not the end of it. After all I've seen (which is still a very tiny bit of everything, I think), how can human beings think they don't have anything to do with it? How can they not see themselves in the mirror and realize we are just one weird-ass (but still amazing) looking creature holding inside what is really important? The spirit!!! I think I understand what many cultures known for their spiritual knowledge mean when they talk about how all things are part of one great Unity, call it spirit, God, whatever you want. And the body is just something that keeps it inside somehow.
Then, how for most of my life my body has in someway (everyone can relate) contributed to the way I perceive myself. I felt I cut ties from my body that time I took acid. I remember very well how I saw everyone's faces and I was like "man, how did we get so lost?! When and why did we just loose sight of this truth that is being so fucking clear to me right now?!".
This all has been pretty interesting to think about, but at the same time it has been hell to go back to participating in the "normal" activities that this society requires you to. I mean school, I mean talking to people of things that just make me feel there is a wall between me and them. I don't want to make the impression of being "special", because part of what I've learned is that there is no special, we are a whole, we are one, and I wish I could establish bonds of knowledge with these people. Maybe I'm just surrounded by people who haven't got the chance to explore other kinds of consciousness and find this truth I feel I've seen a part of, which is waaaay better that the ideas modern society is driven by. I feel alone in this, and whenever I try to explain this to other people they just don't seem to understand, they look at me like I'm insane and what I'm telling them is undesirable. I don't blame them though, a while back I would've thought I'm insane.
Living the way everyone around me lives is just so not appealing. I feel it's empty, and feeling that way is pretty discouraging from even attempting to be what I wanted to be, a cinematographer. I don't want to have this feeling, I want to shoot my films and I want to try to make people understand what I've seen.
I hope I'm explaining myself well enough and you can understand and (I really hope) relate.
So what do you think?
GREETINGS EVERYONE
I believe psychedelic experiences do expand your consciousness and help you understand. I know it. Thing is, I have used LSD several times, but since the last time I don't seem to be able to really "go back to normal". It would be hard for me to explain the experience as a whole (I'm sure you understand). It felt like I suddenly woke up from a dream. All the things I considered common or normal (specifically human bodies and the human society) seemed to loose their importance. Or better said, they became the most illogical thing to me. It suddenly hit me, we are nothing but animals. I mean, we are just a small part of the world, which holds thousands and thousands forms of existence. How and why did the human species come to think they were superior to the rest? Why did we loose this contact I've been feeling towards everything nature is? I mean living things, dead things, it's no different. We will die, but I know that is not the end of it. After all I've seen (which is still a very tiny bit of everything, I think), how can human beings think they don't have anything to do with it? How can they not see themselves in the mirror and realize we are just one weird-ass (but still amazing) looking creature holding inside what is really important? The spirit!!! I think I understand what many cultures known for their spiritual knowledge mean when they talk about how all things are part of one great Unity, call it spirit, God, whatever you want. And the body is just something that keeps it inside somehow.
Then, how for most of my life my body has in someway (everyone can relate) contributed to the way I perceive myself. I felt I cut ties from my body that time I took acid. I remember very well how I saw everyone's faces and I was like "man, how did we get so lost?! When and why did we just loose sight of this truth that is being so fucking clear to me right now?!".
This all has been pretty interesting to think about, but at the same time it has been hell to go back to participating in the "normal" activities that this society requires you to. I mean school, I mean talking to people of things that just make me feel there is a wall between me and them. I don't want to make the impression of being "special", because part of what I've learned is that there is no special, we are a whole, we are one, and I wish I could establish bonds of knowledge with these people. Maybe I'm just surrounded by people who haven't got the chance to explore other kinds of consciousness and find this truth I feel I've seen a part of, which is waaaay better that the ideas modern society is driven by. I feel alone in this, and whenever I try to explain this to other people they just don't seem to understand, they look at me like I'm insane and what I'm telling them is undesirable. I don't blame them though, a while back I would've thought I'm insane.
Living the way everyone around me lives is just so not appealing. I feel it's empty, and feeling that way is pretty discouraging from even attempting to be what I wanted to be, a cinematographer. I don't want to have this feeling, I want to shoot my films and I want to try to make people understand what I've seen.
I hope I'm explaining myself well enough and you can understand and (I really hope) relate.
So what do you think?
GREETINGS EVERYONE