jackhunter24
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- Jan 7, 2015
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So almost two months ago I did acid for the first time. I had previously done shrooms twice, and had a great time both times, so I thought I was ready. However, doing acid ended up being maybe the worst experience of my life. I won't go into detail, but the whole experience was awful.
So ever since this awful experience, I just have not felt myself. I have had this feeling, its a combination of anxiety, depression, and just this overall weird feeling in my head. I have dealt with anxiety and depression previously in my life, but never as bad as this. The weird feeling is hard to describe. Its almost like everything in my brain is just off, I don't know how else to describe it. I also have been dealing with brain fog. This feeling comes and goes. Some days it is really bad, some days I feel fine. Some days I feel awful at the beginning of the day, but am fine later in the day. There have been two times I have felt fine for a period of a few days, and thought that I was better, only to have the feeling come back.
I have told my parents that I have not been feeling right, but not that it started after doing acid. They are the type of parents that don't even like me smoking a little weed, I feel like them finding out I did acid would just make things a lot worse. My mom thinks I need to be on a higher dose of medicine (I take prozac for anxiety) or that I should go back to being on paxil, which I was on in the past. Would this help?
I have an appointment with the counseling center at my college on wednesday. I have heard they are helpful. I am tired of keeping this all to myself. I plan on telling the counselor the whole story. It is 100% confidential, and if they are not helpful, I can just not go back.
Basically I am just really scared and confused right now. I am scared because I don't know if I will ever get better. I was never the happiest person in the world, but I am realizing now how great my life was before all this happened. I would give anything to go back to that time.
If anybody can help at all, it would be appreciated. Thanks.
So ever since this awful experience, I just have not felt myself. I have had this feeling, its a combination of anxiety, depression, and just this overall weird feeling in my head. I have dealt with anxiety and depression previously in my life, but never as bad as this. The weird feeling is hard to describe. Its almost like everything in my brain is just off, I don't know how else to describe it. I also have been dealing with brain fog. This feeling comes and goes. Some days it is really bad, some days I feel fine. Some days I feel awful at the beginning of the day, but am fine later in the day. There have been two times I have felt fine for a period of a few days, and thought that I was better, only to have the feeling come back.
I have told my parents that I have not been feeling right, but not that it started after doing acid. They are the type of parents that don't even like me smoking a little weed, I feel like them finding out I did acid would just make things a lot worse. My mom thinks I need to be on a higher dose of medicine (I take prozac for anxiety) or that I should go back to being on paxil, which I was on in the past. Would this help?
I have an appointment with the counseling center at my college on wednesday. I have heard they are helpful. I am tired of keeping this all to myself. I plan on telling the counselor the whole story. It is 100% confidential, and if they are not helpful, I can just not go back.
Basically I am just really scared and confused right now. I am scared because I don't know if I will ever get better. I was never the happiest person in the world, but I am realizing now how great my life was before all this happened. I would give anything to go back to that time.
If anybody can help at all, it would be appreciated. Thanks.