abscondingdarkness
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jun 14, 2018
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Hey there,
This isn't my first account here but I wish I wasn't back creating another account. Basically after 4 years clean, 6 weeks ago I had a cancer scare and asked my doctor for valium to help with anxiety. He flat out told me, I was drug-seeking behaviour and "no" he didn't realise I was suicidal and didn't bother to screen my mental health. 2 days later I relapsed back into heroin and oxycodone.
After 2 -3 weeks I realised I no longer wanted to be on and went to find a methadone doctor with the plan that ill just get a little help getting off a fairly low relapse dose. When I got there, alarm bells should have rung, but I was in withdrawals and desperate (we all know that headspace of not caring just needing something, anything! to help) He put me on 50mg methadone which I instantly knew was too high but he assured me I would cut down fast and be clean in one month.
Now is a good time to mention that I'm allergic (and my old doctor - now retired - knew this, but of course my new doctor didn't believe me) allergic to both methadone and bupe and have severe vomiting on both 5-6 times per day ( hospital IV, Zofran which is a chemo anti nausea, etc multiple times) so I have to be off quickly cos I lost 8kg (18lbs) in 4 weeks from vomiting constantly alongside other things.
Long story short my doctor is refusing to reduce my dose and so luckily because of my religion I can only take the methadone tablets and not liquid, so I have started myself cutting down my dose from 50mg to 25mg in 2 weeks. Its now starting to hit me harder and I need help to get off the last 25mg of methadone (hopefully in under 10 days) I do, thankfully have some good support meds. I have 38 x 5mg Valium tabs, 2x 10mg oxycodone capsules 1 x 20mg modified released oxycodone (Oxycontin) as well as 20 x 30mg codeine tabs and 10 x 50mg tramadol capsules (used by date expired)
I also clonidine and baclofen (but those last two are both 3-4 years expired). At home I have 65 x 10 mg of methadone tablets so I don't HAVE to go cold turkey, but my vomiting is profuse and I'm needing almost daily hospital visits for the vomiting and their advice is "Hun you just gotta get this shit out of you" - which is totally correct. 8 weeks ago, I was fine and happy and the past 4 years of being clean have been wonderful.
I need a 10-day plan on how the heck to get off, with limited withdrawal pains. I am a female moderate opiate tolerances 5'8 and 150lbs or 173cm and 70kg. I appreciate any and all help.
I'm devasted to be back here, but so glad this place still exists. Thank you in advance, I am sooo sick being on methadone I just need to be off it.
This isn't my first account here but I wish I wasn't back creating another account. Basically after 4 years clean, 6 weeks ago I had a cancer scare and asked my doctor for valium to help with anxiety. He flat out told me, I was drug-seeking behaviour and "no" he didn't realise I was suicidal and didn't bother to screen my mental health. 2 days later I relapsed back into heroin and oxycodone.
After 2 -3 weeks I realised I no longer wanted to be on and went to find a methadone doctor with the plan that ill just get a little help getting off a fairly low relapse dose. When I got there, alarm bells should have rung, but I was in withdrawals and desperate (we all know that headspace of not caring just needing something, anything! to help) He put me on 50mg methadone which I instantly knew was too high but he assured me I would cut down fast and be clean in one month.
Now is a good time to mention that I'm allergic (and my old doctor - now retired - knew this, but of course my new doctor didn't believe me) allergic to both methadone and bupe and have severe vomiting on both 5-6 times per day ( hospital IV, Zofran which is a chemo anti nausea, etc multiple times) so I have to be off quickly cos I lost 8kg (18lbs) in 4 weeks from vomiting constantly alongside other things.
Long story short my doctor is refusing to reduce my dose and so luckily because of my religion I can only take the methadone tablets and not liquid, so I have started myself cutting down my dose from 50mg to 25mg in 2 weeks. Its now starting to hit me harder and I need help to get off the last 25mg of methadone (hopefully in under 10 days) I do, thankfully have some good support meds. I have 38 x 5mg Valium tabs, 2x 10mg oxycodone capsules 1 x 20mg modified released oxycodone (Oxycontin) as well as 20 x 30mg codeine tabs and 10 x 50mg tramadol capsules (used by date expired)
I also clonidine and baclofen (but those last two are both 3-4 years expired). At home I have 65 x 10 mg of methadone tablets so I don't HAVE to go cold turkey, but my vomiting is profuse and I'm needing almost daily hospital visits for the vomiting and their advice is "Hun you just gotta get this shit out of you" - which is totally correct. 8 weeks ago, I was fine and happy and the past 4 years of being clean have been wonderful.
I need a 10-day plan on how the heck to get off, with limited withdrawal pains. I am a female moderate opiate tolerances 5'8 and 150lbs or 173cm and 70kg. I appreciate any and all help.
I'm devasted to be back here, but so glad this place still exists. Thank you in advance, I am sooo sick being on methadone I just need to be off it.