MountainDew444
Greenlighter
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- Sep 9, 2020
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My first post here... I got myself in a weird situation. After being clean of illegal substances with the help of 12mg a day of suboxone for 2 years, I relapsed recently and stopped taking the suboxone and replaced it with Fentanyl (from the street, I smoke it)
After using the fentanyl for 2 weeks I got back onto the suboxone (there was still a lot of withdrawal though to get back on the subs)
After I was back on the suboxone, I did not touch the fentanyl for a week and only used suboxone 12mg per day but then at the end of the week I relapsed again....
This time though I NEVER stopped using the suboxone 12mg per day because I know that If i stop taking the suboxone things would only get worse.
So its been about a week of me taking the suboxone 12mg each morning but smoking the fentanyl on top of it throughout each day and night trying to get high ( sometimes I get a nod, but its definitely dulled from the suboxone)
Now I regret these stupid decisions I keep making and want to quit again and just be on the suboxone because I am SO TIRED of using and miss my much happier life that i just had a few weeks ago when I was steadily ONLY taking suboxone and no illegal drugs... but I am worried about there being withdrawals again. I know suboxone is supposed to block the fentanyl but i don't know if its really blocking all of it.
If i stop smoking the fentanyl should I expect there to be withdrawals since I still sometimes get a nod from it over the last 8 days??? Or should I be okay because I never stopped taking the suboxone 12mg daily this time??? Please help.
I regret these relapses so much and just want to be clean. My plan is to get steady on the suboxone and then eventually get off that... But for now I just want to be stable on suboxone again and feel happy. I feel so anxious and shitty about this situation I got myself in. I have a girlfriend and help take care of her toddler who views me as his father (prior to my relapse, i haven't seen him since). She knows about the relapse and if I can't stop the Fentanyl she is going to leave me. I am motivated just scared.
After using the fentanyl for 2 weeks I got back onto the suboxone (there was still a lot of withdrawal though to get back on the subs)
After I was back on the suboxone, I did not touch the fentanyl for a week and only used suboxone 12mg per day but then at the end of the week I relapsed again....
This time though I NEVER stopped using the suboxone 12mg per day because I know that If i stop taking the suboxone things would only get worse.
So its been about a week of me taking the suboxone 12mg each morning but smoking the fentanyl on top of it throughout each day and night trying to get high ( sometimes I get a nod, but its definitely dulled from the suboxone)
Now I regret these stupid decisions I keep making and want to quit again and just be on the suboxone because I am SO TIRED of using and miss my much happier life that i just had a few weeks ago when I was steadily ONLY taking suboxone and no illegal drugs... but I am worried about there being withdrawals again. I know suboxone is supposed to block the fentanyl but i don't know if its really blocking all of it.
If i stop smoking the fentanyl should I expect there to be withdrawals since I still sometimes get a nod from it over the last 8 days??? Or should I be okay because I never stopped taking the suboxone 12mg daily this time??? Please help.
I regret these relapses so much and just want to be clean. My plan is to get steady on the suboxone and then eventually get off that... But for now I just want to be stable on suboxone again and feel happy. I feel so anxious and shitty about this situation I got myself in. I have a girlfriend and help take care of her toddler who views me as his father (prior to my relapse, i haven't seen him since). She knows about the relapse and if I can't stop the Fentanyl she is going to leave me. I am motivated just scared.