I think everyone will give you the same answer. You have tried stims... if that doesn't work why would anything else? There is no magic drug to make you not sleep (sounds like you tried the only one there is)
So drink less.. whats the issue? Why can't one beer be enough of two? I get that frustration but wouldn't you enjoy your self more being awake and not drinking as much then trying to counter the sleepiness with hard core drugs?
BTW do you get enough sleep? That can mess with you
I've always wanted to try ephedra ever since it got banned back in '06(?) I don't mind having to add another drug to the mix if it'll compliment the evening well but with the exception of cocaine and the rightly-timed adderall pill I haven't found anything else to work. I just hate missing out on all the drunken debauchery my mates and I could be having if I wasn't always the one passing out. As for the sleep, I get about 6 hours of sleep a night but I could be living with sleep apnea and just not know. Also whenever I drink, especially when heavily, I wake up tired regardless of how many hours I got. I just read an article that stated it is because when we sleep drunk our minds never enter REM sleep. I've since decided not to drink during the week.
xxsicknesssxx has just, "/thread"ed this thread.
Honestly, can you elaborate? I'm always interested, psychologically and relevant to my work, why some people have "paradoxical reactions" to cannabis. Your explanation is interesting. How is it like to be trapped in the mind? I feel like I am trapped in mind but that this is normal?
Good luck! Maybe try just doing the e-cigs again.
I don't know, man.
Very much appreciate the genuine effort you've given mate. Thanks for that. To answer your question: I couldn't really explain it enough/well without being high; I'm sure you understand. After all the years of using and describing how drugs make you feel, I recently came to the conclusion that you can't really tell someone how a drug feels. It's probably similar to how the mind alters the memory of childbirth in women to make it possible for women to procreate again. I don't know.
Anyway... I guess you could call it extreme self-doubt. I'm a pretty confident and social dude. Put me in a room with a group of people and I'll make at least one friend. I'm fairly intelligent and love to learn. But when I smoke, I become anti-social. I have no desire or possibly lack the ability to talk or interact with other people including my closest friends. I question every movement, every word, every action. An example of one of the countless internal monologues: I'll think about my swallowing (is my throat too dry, am I swallowing too hard, am I swallowing too frequently, can other people hear me swallow, does it bother them, should I do it less, why am I thinking about swallowing so damn much, I should stop...) and while these thoughts seem trivial I am paralyzed by them, they consume my every being and I can't stop thinking about them. If my concentration is broken by someone asking me a question or having to go somewhere I'm not, I'll be completely lost as to how to respond or move (Which route should I take, why did I get up weird, am I waking normal?) Sorry if the explanation is confusing but it's hard to explain especially via message board.
Nope, my keg of homebrew was ready yesterdday so tonight i'll have a heavy drinking session after work and see how it goes. I wanna stay awake this time, the amount of quality tv i've missed lol
The best of luck to ya! If you don't mind post the results or PM me.
