kushblowin
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- Jul 12, 2021
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ive tried everything and opiates and weed are the only things that feel normal to me.
i had a ritalin script and whenever i took it it just made me feel really tired, anxious, lazy like all i could do is lay down but i couldnt sleep and i got the constant need to redose and just wanted to watch porn all night. hated it and i wish that drug didnt exist. i tried mdma and its the exact opposite. as soon as it hits me i feel nervous and anxious as hell, i start feeling exhausted and really tired and trippy, i feel like i hate the world and it just makes me really depressed but then the CRASH is the part that feels good.
when i take benzos it feels exactly like a mdma or a stimulant would for a normal person. i get energetic as hell, talkative, i start being productive, and doing chores showering and cleaning for no reason loving everyone but at the same time i feel like i could lay down and fall asleep really easy which is like the perfect buzz for my lazy ass. i tried kratom and i just had the total opposite effect i get hit with euphoria, but instead of constipation i feel like i ate 200g of fiber and if i take a low dose it feels like an opiate and if i take a high dose it feels like a stimulant.
my brain is clearly fucked but what the hell could do this? i think i screwed with my brain chemistry too much getting prescribed those fucking ritalin because that was basically the first and harder drug i really got into and it was just fucking awful it sent me to some dark places and doing some weird shit it got to the point i wouldnt even touch them even if i had a full bottle staring at me for months. zero urge to ever touch it again.
i had a ritalin script and whenever i took it it just made me feel really tired, anxious, lazy like all i could do is lay down but i couldnt sleep and i got the constant need to redose and just wanted to watch porn all night. hated it and i wish that drug didnt exist. i tried mdma and its the exact opposite. as soon as it hits me i feel nervous and anxious as hell, i start feeling exhausted and really tired and trippy, i feel like i hate the world and it just makes me really depressed but then the CRASH is the part that feels good.
when i take benzos it feels exactly like a mdma or a stimulant would for a normal person. i get energetic as hell, talkative, i start being productive, and doing chores showering and cleaning for no reason loving everyone but at the same time i feel like i could lay down and fall asleep really easy which is like the perfect buzz for my lazy ass. i tried kratom and i just had the total opposite effect i get hit with euphoria, but instead of constipation i feel like i ate 200g of fiber and if i take a low dose it feels like an opiate and if i take a high dose it feels like a stimulant.
my brain is clearly fucked but what the hell could do this? i think i screwed with my brain chemistry too much getting prescribed those fucking ritalin because that was basically the first and harder drug i really got into and it was just fucking awful it sent me to some dark places and doing some weird shit it got to the point i wouldnt even touch them even if i had a full bottle staring at me for months. zero urge to ever touch it again.
