JoshLobbs
Bluelight Crew
- Joined
- Apr 4, 2021
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I will prefix this by saying I am currently not in a good place. I'm working towards something but I can't say if it will end out better or worse.
Now on to my rant.
Holidays always make me depressed. I hate leisure, I hate the way it makes me feel. Sitting on my arse all day leaves me in dispare.
I love hard labor. I just adore it. Digging, lifting, smashing it's just a dream. My ideal day would be to work hard, socialize at lunch, work hard until the end of the day and then sleep.
I feel trapped in adolescents. And I hate myself for it.
I am takeing steps away from the hedonistic pit I find myself in. But the walls are slipped and every time I take a break I slip backwards.
How do you guys find the holidays?
Now on to my rant.
Holidays always make me depressed. I hate leisure, I hate the way it makes me feel. Sitting on my arse all day leaves me in dispare.
I love hard labor. I just adore it. Digging, lifting, smashing it's just a dream. My ideal day would be to work hard, socialize at lunch, work hard until the end of the day and then sleep.
I feel trapped in adolescents. And I hate myself for it.
I am takeing steps away from the hedonistic pit I find myself in. But the walls are slipped and every time I take a break I slip backwards.
How do you guys find the holidays?