ThisIsKitty
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 17, 2013
- Messages
- 73
Let me start off by saying ignore my name, Im a male. Dont even ask lol.
First things first, I never had a relationship all my life (Im still young, 20) and I never really cared for companionship until I met this girl and we clicked like a seat belt in a car. Excuse my seat belt reference Ive had a few drinks. So this is all new to me. Ive had relationships in the past where we would see each other for a couple months but it never turned into anything serious.
But to the point. I have this stupid Alpha Male persona thats holding me back, and I cant seem to swallow my pride. I dont want to look weak in front of her or clingy, which Im not. But the transistion from . "Alpha" to "Loving boyfriend" might be a complete 180 in her eyes and I may come off as soft to her. I see her maybe once a week or if Im lucky, twice. The highlights of my week are basically the time we spend together. Im confused as fuck, I cant even explain what Im trying to get at but in the end my point is I wanna open up to her more but my mind is telling me not to because I fear she'll think Im some sort of beta bitch-boy even though I KNOW she wont. Shes been hurt in previous relationships, and thats one thing I dont wanna end up doing..
I guess this topic is more of a vent topic, the drinks have me feeling exposed so instead of texting her this I feel as though I should write it here and not wake up with a regret.
Oh alcohol, how you leave people feeling naked.
First things first, I never had a relationship all my life (Im still young, 20) and I never really cared for companionship until I met this girl and we clicked like a seat belt in a car. Excuse my seat belt reference Ive had a few drinks. So this is all new to me. Ive had relationships in the past where we would see each other for a couple months but it never turned into anything serious.
But to the point. I have this stupid Alpha Male persona thats holding me back, and I cant seem to swallow my pride. I dont want to look weak in front of her or clingy, which Im not. But the transistion from . "Alpha" to "Loving boyfriend" might be a complete 180 in her eyes and I may come off as soft to her. I see her maybe once a week or if Im lucky, twice. The highlights of my week are basically the time we spend together. Im confused as fuck, I cant even explain what Im trying to get at but in the end my point is I wanna open up to her more but my mind is telling me not to because I fear she'll think Im some sort of beta bitch-boy even though I KNOW she wont. Shes been hurt in previous relationships, and thats one thing I dont wanna end up doing..
I guess this topic is more of a vent topic, the drinks have me feeling exposed so instead of texting her this I feel as though I should write it here and not wake up with a regret.
Oh alcohol, how you leave people feeling naked.
