EphemeralOutlet141
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- Dec 11, 2014
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I've noticed this and wondered for a while. When I compare trips with friends (on LSD/LSA/Shrooms) their experiences seem to closely mirror each other's and mine is way off. I understand that psychedelics can affect everyone differently, but I just found it odd that it's EVERY time. By the way, I've only done shrooms and LSA very occasionally, this is more about LSD.
I almost never seem to get the "psychedelic experience" in terms of visuals, save for my very first time. By that I mean no fractals, kaleidoscopes, colors, patterns. Everything seems to look hyper-realistic and occasionally breathy unless I'm on a higher than normal dose, in which case everything liquifies.
In terms of emotional effects, I don't get much here either. I feel mostly the same, and have similar thoughts with the exception of some delusional thinking (I'm a god among men or my personal favorite of me being a shadowy entity possessing a human body). I feel even further from other people and have less regard for emotion, whereas people describe empathogenic (is that the word?) experiences.
Part of this I attribute to tripping mostly solo, although I have tripped in groups on occasion. I very rarely understand my trips. I feel like they bring me nowhere fast. I generally try to dispel expectations and go into the trip with an open mind, but it still feels essentially hollow and nihilistic like there's no meaning. I almost never feel that feeling of being "one with everything", it's essentially the opposite but not necessarily in a negative out-of-place way.
So basically what I'm trying to ask, is there a psychological reason for this? Am I being told something but I'm just ignorant of it?
I almost never seem to get the "psychedelic experience" in terms of visuals, save for my very first time. By that I mean no fractals, kaleidoscopes, colors, patterns. Everything seems to look hyper-realistic and occasionally breathy unless I'm on a higher than normal dose, in which case everything liquifies.
In terms of emotional effects, I don't get much here either. I feel mostly the same, and have similar thoughts with the exception of some delusional thinking (I'm a god among men or my personal favorite of me being a shadowy entity possessing a human body). I feel even further from other people and have less regard for emotion, whereas people describe empathogenic (is that the word?) experiences.
Part of this I attribute to tripping mostly solo, although I have tripped in groups on occasion. I very rarely understand my trips. I feel like they bring me nowhere fast. I generally try to dispel expectations and go into the trip with an open mind, but it still feels essentially hollow and nihilistic like there's no meaning. I almost never feel that feeling of being "one with everything", it's essentially the opposite but not necessarily in a negative out-of-place way.
So basically what I'm trying to ask, is there a psychological reason for this? Am I being told something but I'm just ignorant of it?