PMS
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 3, 2012
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- 145
Thing is,
I used to be a "major" speed freak, I.V.'ing speed and meth for almost every day, for 8-9 years. Was "lucky" enough to try the very finest of "speed" products; real "marzipan" paste, pink rocks;
all kinds of "candy smelling" and really potent material. The best speed I did, didn't even give me a "hangover"- even after using many grams.
I quit the needle 10 months ago, and hasn't done any speed since then-
....
apart from yesterday. My neighbor offered me 0,27 grams of what he said was "good speed"; it looked like a piece of chalk, that he had to cut up with a knife...
i "parachuted" it in cigarette paper, and swallowed it down with wine.
Now, this was nowhere "good" speed. I did get kinda... energetic for a few hours, but the high only lasted about 4 hours, and then I went to bed.
Woke up at 06:00 in the morning, feeling really, really "off"- and since then; I've felt completely SHIT. This reminds me, of all the negative aspects with amphetamine- the comedown; the "guilty, empty, sad, " horrible feeling.... my entire body is stiff, like I've been working out at a gym.... my hands feel "bloated", my stomach hurts; and I'm anxious, sad- and find no reason to smile at all.
I know, it will pass... but this has easily been the worst day, in almost a years time. :/
Hope this can be a reminder to clean/sober friends, and also for people, who really need to consider- the negative effects of (usually poor quality) speed.
best wishes
-Erl
I used to be a "major" speed freak, I.V.'ing speed and meth for almost every day, for 8-9 years. Was "lucky" enough to try the very finest of "speed" products; real "marzipan" paste, pink rocks;
all kinds of "candy smelling" and really potent material. The best speed I did, didn't even give me a "hangover"- even after using many grams.
I quit the needle 10 months ago, and hasn't done any speed since then-
....
apart from yesterday. My neighbor offered me 0,27 grams of what he said was "good speed"; it looked like a piece of chalk, that he had to cut up with a knife...
i "parachuted" it in cigarette paper, and swallowed it down with wine.
Now, this was nowhere "good" speed. I did get kinda... energetic for a few hours, but the high only lasted about 4 hours, and then I went to bed.
Woke up at 06:00 in the morning, feeling really, really "off"- and since then; I've felt completely SHIT. This reminds me, of all the negative aspects with amphetamine- the comedown; the "guilty, empty, sad, " horrible feeling.... my entire body is stiff, like I've been working out at a gym.... my hands feel "bloated", my stomach hurts; and I'm anxious, sad- and find no reason to smile at all.
I know, it will pass... but this has easily been the worst day, in almost a years time. :/
Hope this can be a reminder to clean/sober friends, and also for people, who really need to consider- the negative effects of (usually poor quality) speed.
best wishes
-Erl