Aihfl, I've always got a lot from your posts. Sorry to hear life sucks for you atm. But, just as everyone has said, you will get through this. At the very least, rehab will get you off the street and someplace safe for now. Until you're actually there, keep using the delivery service because alcohol withdrawls can kill you and, i, for one, would really miss your posts!!!
When I was in rehab, I met people in my same legal and professional situation. While I also met people in worse situations, it was good to know I wasn't alone.
My parents learned of my morphine addiction when I literally crawled to a pay phone, (mobile and land line were cut off) at 3am and told them I needed help. After a few minutes of shock, they did what any parent would do...Anything and everything. One day your children will need your help - for whatever reason - and you will give it. And you will be so glad that you are there to do so.