I called a whole list of 40 places. No one will take me. I feel like a shit bag dirt bag for scoring again today I didn't have too.
Tomorrow is Friday. My mother doesn't have work and she will take Monday off if needed.
I'm going to start off fine tomorrow morning, cause I had shit tonight and my wds don't start for a while thanks to my low not really so bad compared to people I know addiction.
I'm going to take it one day at a time instead of worrying about the next day like I always do. My dad said he beat alcohol with jail but stayed off "one day at a time"
So tomorrow won't be so bad, but it's going to be the slowest weekend ever.
I'm giving over my phone at the end of it I'm getting a different one new number and all.
I'm gonna keep my computer and maybe play wow if I'm up for it. The only detox that said it might be available tomorrow involves subs and I'm nor looking to replace.
I've got all the otc expect Loper amide I'm not using any sort of opiate during this long hellish weekend.
I'm off to smoke my last blunt for a while with my buddy will.
I will be using my ambient possibly during the day to be somewhat sedated. It's prescribed to me. I got some otc med for rls.
I'm mostly excited about what i have read for remerons effect on wds I have a full script of it.
Since I do a lot if laying around during wd especially at night I'm going to get audipbooks. One room two fans some helpful medicine my mom right there no phone no money I gave my money to my dad.
Anyway the checklist :
No opiates, subs and lope included.
A ton of gatorade and water... A shit ton
My remeron and ambien...
A bunch of otc Meds
My mom and family not letting me leave.
I have no choice but to.make this work. Wish me luck