I can live on coffee and cigarettes
I can watch everyone around me eat and not take a bite
I like the feeling of being hungry
and I love hearing you say
I'm too thin and I should eat more
I can be beautiful too.
I can count all of my ribs one by one
and I can even grab hold of the bottom one and feel the other side
I can make you bruise if you bump into my hips bones
they stick out so far
and my breasts have shrunk a whole cup size
but I don't care because I look like the girl in the magazine
I can be beautiful too.
I can wear short shirts that show off my stomach
and watch you stare and watch you get so jealous
because you know you wish you looked like me
I can be beautiful too.
I can hate myself for eating dinner
I know I just gained 5 pounds
I can want to die for eating that chocolate bar
but really I'm perfectly happy
I can cry myself to sleep every night
and wonder what it would be like to feel alive
but you just see me when I smile
because I am always
in control
I can be beautiful too.
I can be the girl you all want to be
I love this torture
it makes me stronger
and I know you all admire me
but don't tell me you love me
because I don't know what to say
because I never learned to love myself
and I won't believe you anyway
I can be beautiful too.
I can feel full on a meal of lies
I can believe that I am free
it's not because I don't know how to change
this is the way I want to be, really
(why don't you believe me?)
so don't judge me or call me stupid
because you don't know what it's like
and you don't know me
I can be beautiful too.
~kimmy.
[This message has been edited by *SWeeT-e* (edited 01 November 2000).]
I can watch everyone around me eat and not take a bite
I like the feeling of being hungry
and I love hearing you say
I'm too thin and I should eat more
I can be beautiful too.
I can count all of my ribs one by one
and I can even grab hold of the bottom one and feel the other side
I can make you bruise if you bump into my hips bones
they stick out so far
and my breasts have shrunk a whole cup size
but I don't care because I look like the girl in the magazine
I can be beautiful too.
I can wear short shirts that show off my stomach
and watch you stare and watch you get so jealous
because you know you wish you looked like me
I can be beautiful too.
I can hate myself for eating dinner
I know I just gained 5 pounds
I can want to die for eating that chocolate bar
but really I'm perfectly happy
I can cry myself to sleep every night
and wonder what it would be like to feel alive
but you just see me when I smile
because I am always
in control
I can be beautiful too.
I can be the girl you all want to be
I love this torture
it makes me stronger
and I know you all admire me
but don't tell me you love me
because I don't know what to say
because I never learned to love myself
and I won't believe you anyway
I can be beautiful too.
I can feel full on a meal of lies
I can believe that I am free
it's not because I don't know how to change
this is the way I want to be, really
(why don't you believe me?)
so don't judge me or call me stupid
because you don't know what it's like
and you don't know me
I can be beautiful too.
~kimmy.
[This message has been edited by *SWeeT-e* (edited 01 November 2000).]