Or maybe its the mixture of buprenorphine, but gee golly, it's like thoughts go from negative mindset to repeatedly thinking about comfy and satisfying things almost like a mental fidget spinner if you will. Things like keyboard keys clickin' and things lining up perfectly parallel and cleaning surfaces and living in some top floor of a cold dark damp brutalist concrete structure with LED's and high end computers. Or how unfathomably comfy you can get with multiple blankets and warm tea and crackers (With the AC up because unfortunately it's getting harder to get cold). Or how good chicken fettuccine is going to taste this weekend after I starve myself for a while and do cardio.