fuckedinthehead
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I went hard a couple binges ago and I'm not sure what happened.
I have been doing oral doses, filling pill capsules.
I took like 250mg for my first dose. An hour so goes by and I decide to take another 250mg. I wanted to go hard, and I sure did with 500mg in an hour. I had NEVER taken that much before.
I straight up blacked out soon after the 2nd pill. I don't remember it kicking in, which I should remember since it was half a fucking gram and had to come down on me with the wrath of God. Seriously, that's not a good sign, is it?
I found myself in sitting on my bed not knowing when or how I got there. I'm shirtless and I'm not sure when that happened. I realized I needed to take my dog out, I found my hoodie on the floor and put it on, then took my dog out. When I came back inside, I noticed that my whole hoodie was pretty damp. It wasn't raining so that wasn't it. The dog didn't pee on it. It had to be sweat. Like a lot of it. I had a pack of cigarettes in the pocket, totally soaked through. Like I was sweating so much it soaked my entire hoodie and my cigarettes. Yet, I have no memory of it. Nothing. What happened? Why don't I remember any of it? Also why the hell would I not take my hoodie off before the whole thing was soaked?
I don't remember how much time went by. I know that my body "felt" a different time and it kept confusing me. Like when it was 2am, It felt like 4pm.
You'd think I would've stopped the binge there, but no I did not. I kept going. I don't remember how long this one was exactly, at the very least 3 days.
The pack of cigarettes was dry whenever I pulled them out, but it looked like it'd been through a washing machine. It was close to a full pack. Every single damn cigarette had a water stain covering at least 75% of it. It was the only pack I had and I was too tweaked out to be in public, so I had no choice but to smoke them. Fucking confused as hell every time I looked at the pack, how the hell did this happen and I don't remember it?
I probably searched all of bluelight and reddit trying to find someone else with a similar experience. Not much.
How much am I fucking up my brain?
I had two binges after, did a few 500mg doses. Lowest dose I'm taking at this point is ~350mg.
Then an adderall binge happening real time right now. 600mg in the past 24 hours.
In the past 30 days, I've spent 20 days high on meth and missed 15 days of sleep. I barely eat when I'm high then I binge eat like hell when I'm not. I don't drink anywhere near enough water. I am starting to go entire days without food or water, I just forget.
How bad am I hurting myself?
Also also, I got a box of syringes in the mail yesterday and had every intention of slamming meth for the first time. Before I could buy the meth, I came across some adderall and ended up just using that all day. No meth purchased. I'm losing it.
I have been doing oral doses, filling pill capsules.
I took like 250mg for my first dose. An hour so goes by and I decide to take another 250mg. I wanted to go hard, and I sure did with 500mg in an hour. I had NEVER taken that much before.
I straight up blacked out soon after the 2nd pill. I don't remember it kicking in, which I should remember since it was half a fucking gram and had to come down on me with the wrath of God. Seriously, that's not a good sign, is it?
I found myself in sitting on my bed not knowing when or how I got there. I'm shirtless and I'm not sure when that happened. I realized I needed to take my dog out, I found my hoodie on the floor and put it on, then took my dog out. When I came back inside, I noticed that my whole hoodie was pretty damp. It wasn't raining so that wasn't it. The dog didn't pee on it. It had to be sweat. Like a lot of it. I had a pack of cigarettes in the pocket, totally soaked through. Like I was sweating so much it soaked my entire hoodie and my cigarettes. Yet, I have no memory of it. Nothing. What happened? Why don't I remember any of it? Also why the hell would I not take my hoodie off before the whole thing was soaked?
I don't remember how much time went by. I know that my body "felt" a different time and it kept confusing me. Like when it was 2am, It felt like 4pm.
You'd think I would've stopped the binge there, but no I did not. I kept going. I don't remember how long this one was exactly, at the very least 3 days.
The pack of cigarettes was dry whenever I pulled them out, but it looked like it'd been through a washing machine. It was close to a full pack. Every single damn cigarette had a water stain covering at least 75% of it. It was the only pack I had and I was too tweaked out to be in public, so I had no choice but to smoke them. Fucking confused as hell every time I looked at the pack, how the hell did this happen and I don't remember it?
I probably searched all of bluelight and reddit trying to find someone else with a similar experience. Not much.
How much am I fucking up my brain?
I had two binges after, did a few 500mg doses. Lowest dose I'm taking at this point is ~350mg.
Then an adderall binge happening real time right now. 600mg in the past 24 hours.
In the past 30 days, I've spent 20 days high on meth and missed 15 days of sleep. I barely eat when I'm high then I binge eat like hell when I'm not. I don't drink anywhere near enough water. I am starting to go entire days without food or water, I just forget.
How bad am I hurting myself?
Also also, I got a box of syringes in the mail yesterday and had every intention of slamming meth for the first time. Before I could buy the meth, I came across some adderall and ended up just using that all day. No meth purchased. I'm losing it.
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