SaintCecelia
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 10, 2018
- Messages
- 56
First let me say to all that are in recovery, attempted recovery, my compassion and respect for you is now REAL! You are amazing human beings no doubt. Thankful for this website.
When I was younger I partied, abused prescriptions at times, but never let it get out of control. I would see where it was going, stop it because that is not who I want to be. But here I am PTSD, 47 years old, took Kratom for 6 months. I took it as an alternative to help with the flashbacks, thoughts, and anxiety. I did not want to take Ativan, klonopin, or Valium. I knew though I needed to go back to therapy. However, last two months I noticed I was taking it everyday 4x a day. IMO not me not good therefore I quit cold turkey 8 days ago. WTH all hell broke lose! What?s hard is the first three days ended me up in the ER because I could not determine what was the physical WD or what was the PTSD. I had no control of the flashbacks NONE! Scared the freak out of me! What was worse is the first day in the ER the docs were clueless how to help me? Idk how accurate that perception is because of my state but hearing the doc say we don?t have a protocol to detox you is not helpful. They gave me clonidine and hydrox(sp?) some anti itch medicine. I don?t feel like that itching med really helps. The tingle in my hands and feet getting better, racing heart getting better, anxiety somewhat better, heart palps somewhat better. Still cannot sleep and I have the aliens(runs). I cannot workout which is driving me crazy. I am so scared I quit my ADHD meds and don?t even drink my one cup of coffee anymore.
Someone tell me when this will get better? Am I going to be myself again? Am I going to be ok?
When I was younger I partied, abused prescriptions at times, but never let it get out of control. I would see where it was going, stop it because that is not who I want to be. But here I am PTSD, 47 years old, took Kratom for 6 months. I took it as an alternative to help with the flashbacks, thoughts, and anxiety. I did not want to take Ativan, klonopin, or Valium. I knew though I needed to go back to therapy. However, last two months I noticed I was taking it everyday 4x a day. IMO not me not good therefore I quit cold turkey 8 days ago. WTH all hell broke lose! What?s hard is the first three days ended me up in the ER because I could not determine what was the physical WD or what was the PTSD. I had no control of the flashbacks NONE! Scared the freak out of me! What was worse is the first day in the ER the docs were clueless how to help me? Idk how accurate that perception is because of my state but hearing the doc say we don?t have a protocol to detox you is not helpful. They gave me clonidine and hydrox(sp?) some anti itch medicine. I don?t feel like that itching med really helps. The tingle in my hands and feet getting better, racing heart getting better, anxiety somewhat better, heart palps somewhat better. Still cannot sleep and I have the aliens(runs). I cannot workout which is driving me crazy. I am so scared I quit my ADHD meds and don?t even drink my one cup of coffee anymore.
Someone tell me when this will get better? Am I going to be myself again? Am I going to be ok?