indigoaura
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Can't honestly say that this is due to drug use, but I suppose long term use of ecstasy could be a factor. In recent years, rolls have been spaced out by 2-6 months.
In any case...
Been having issues with hypervigilance. During 2020, my partner and I isolated hardcore due to COVID and reality basically just dissolved. Basic things like job and stability changed. It was stressful. 2021 brought more challenges that I don't really want to get into, but it involved more instability and more things happening that I did not expect.
Off and on, since then, I have struggled with hypervigilance. It is like my brain is in overdrive trying to anticipate every possible scenario that could go wrong. Sometimes I find relief for awhile and it lets up, then some small triggering event will activate the whole process over again. When it is fully active, it is LOUD, like non-stop disaster scenarios playing in my brain all the time, all these fantasies about what could be going wrong. It is exhausting. At its worst, there can be panic attacks with chest pain and labored breathing.
I have a legit xanax prescription that I have had for years due to flight anxiety, and that stops it. However, I really don't want to develop a benzo addiction.
Has anyone else dealt with this? Did you find anything that helped? I have been considering therapy, but I don't know how useful that will be. Maybe EMDR? I was using ashwagandha for awhile with good results, but then those results seemed to dry up and the ashwagandha sometimes seems to make it worse.
In any case...
Been having issues with hypervigilance. During 2020, my partner and I isolated hardcore due to COVID and reality basically just dissolved. Basic things like job and stability changed. It was stressful. 2021 brought more challenges that I don't really want to get into, but it involved more instability and more things happening that I did not expect.
Off and on, since then, I have struggled with hypervigilance. It is like my brain is in overdrive trying to anticipate every possible scenario that could go wrong. Sometimes I find relief for awhile and it lets up, then some small triggering event will activate the whole process over again. When it is fully active, it is LOUD, like non-stop disaster scenarios playing in my brain all the time, all these fantasies about what could be going wrong. It is exhausting. At its worst, there can be panic attacks with chest pain and labored breathing.
I have a legit xanax prescription that I have had for years due to flight anxiety, and that stops it. However, I really don't want to develop a benzo addiction.
Has anyone else dealt with this? Did you find anything that helped? I have been considering therapy, but I don't know how useful that will be. Maybe EMDR? I was using ashwagandha for awhile with good results, but then those results seemed to dry up and the ashwagandha sometimes seems to make it worse.