Opiods can make you happier then you really are . I go months without them , with no withdrawls .Its just the fact that they make you feel incredible . I got 6 5/500s today and was pretty excited . Only to find out I have lost at least two of them . Panic automatically sets in . Then the rage . Just the feeling of disappointment . 'How can I be so stupid!!'?. I too 12.5mgs today and it got me going . I only have 12.5mgs left now . This is pretty shitty . I know I'm playing with fire .