Here's my story.
So about a month ago, I used acid for the first time.
While my friends lasted the expected 10-12 hours, I tripped for 23 hours. It was terrifying.
The week after I was mostly fine, but occasionally saw the branch of a tree wave when it didn't, or the veins on my hands would look weird. Nothing disturbing really, and it went away after 7-8 days.
Nothing unusual after that.
Last week, I got a pot brownie.
I took a nibble of the brownie, and before going to sleep that night, had some thoughts similar from the trip, and it did worry me a bit, but not too much.
The next day I saw a little bit of the flashing (I will describe the form my 'hppd' takes on later), but not enough to bother me.
Then, during the weekend, I ate the full brownie one night, and drank alchohol on sunday. I can't remember if I was bothered by any visuals on Saturday, but I don't think it was too bad.
Monday is very worrisome. Throughout the day I see little movements and it bothers me, but not to the extent it does now.
Yesterday was a whole other story. The effects came on and off, and i'd psyche myself out thinking I was completely fine one second, and then the next, everything would be moving. That night, I had an anxiety attack, everything was moving more than before, and I just went to sleep.
Today, I have severe anxiety, the motion is more or less a constant, and I am worried if I have HPPD.
My visuals aren't overly hppd-like, but they take the form of everything moving back and forth, and it is disturbing.
I'm going to tell my therapist about it tomorrow, and hopefully get some medication from the psychiatrist to ease my anxiety.
I feel when I am overly focused on my problem, I experience some of the depersonalization, and people have said I just zone out and give them a blank stare.
What am I experiencing? What can I do? I am really having a terrible time, and just want to live life without constant anxiety.
Can HPPD even happen a month after a trip?
Thanks.
So about a month ago, I used acid for the first time.
While my friends lasted the expected 10-12 hours, I tripped for 23 hours. It was terrifying.
The week after I was mostly fine, but occasionally saw the branch of a tree wave when it didn't, or the veins on my hands would look weird. Nothing disturbing really, and it went away after 7-8 days.
Nothing unusual after that.
Last week, I got a pot brownie.
I took a nibble of the brownie, and before going to sleep that night, had some thoughts similar from the trip, and it did worry me a bit, but not too much.
The next day I saw a little bit of the flashing (I will describe the form my 'hppd' takes on later), but not enough to bother me.
Then, during the weekend, I ate the full brownie one night, and drank alchohol on sunday. I can't remember if I was bothered by any visuals on Saturday, but I don't think it was too bad.
Monday is very worrisome. Throughout the day I see little movements and it bothers me, but not to the extent it does now.
Yesterday was a whole other story. The effects came on and off, and i'd psyche myself out thinking I was completely fine one second, and then the next, everything would be moving. That night, I had an anxiety attack, everything was moving more than before, and I just went to sleep.
Today, I have severe anxiety, the motion is more or less a constant, and I am worried if I have HPPD.
My visuals aren't overly hppd-like, but they take the form of everything moving back and forth, and it is disturbing.
I'm going to tell my therapist about it tomorrow, and hopefully get some medication from the psychiatrist to ease my anxiety.
I feel when I am overly focused on my problem, I experience some of the depersonalization, and people have said I just zone out and give them a blank stare.
What am I experiencing? What can I do? I am really having a terrible time, and just want to live life without constant anxiety.
Can HPPD even happen a month after a trip?
Thanks.