So I will be getting LSD soon and I plan on tripping sometime in the next week or two. I have done extensive research and I think I know pretty much most of what there is to know about the substance. I am going to get a trip sitter, who is a long time friend of mine and I'm going to pick a nice warm day one of these weekends so we can go out on a nature walk while I'm tripping.
The only problem is I've had anxiety and panic attacks my whole life. I've gotten it under control for the most part, but I still have some lingering anxiety from time to time. I occasionally get anxiety and a little panicky when I smoke weed, but I've always been able to control it to some degree. I also have really bad emetophobia (fear of throwing up) which is the #1 reason why I'm doing LSD and not shrooms, and one of the main reasons why I still get occasional anxiety. I feel like anxiety has been controlling my life, and I want to learn to live with it, and I feel like an LSD trip might help me with that. Weed has helped my anxiety to some degree, but I know it doesn't open you up as much as LSD does. I also want to learn more about myself so I can be happier with my life overall. I also have some mild depression and a fear of dying, so I want to work with that as well. My ego has become so overpowering that I don't even know who I am anymore. And I don't need drugs to see that. I want to be happier with everything like I was when I was little.
I am mentally stable, and always have been, so I know that I'm ready for something like this. How should I approach this without ruining my whole trip with anxiety? I am currently planning on starting with 1/2 of a tab. Is this enough? I don't want to waste my time by being under stimulated, but I also don't want to be tripping balls on my first time. I'm kinda debating 1 full tab but I'm afraid that it could be really strong acid and will be too intense. I won't take any amount of it unless I am anxiety free, confident, and open minded prior to the trip. I will also tell my friend some "safe spots" that are familiar to take me to so that I can ground myself if things start getting bad.
I am also going to pack a bag with some items that can be helpful just incase things get rough. I'm planning on packing ginger, peppermint oil, and some hydroxyzine pills just incase I feel nauseous; some water and crackers; money just incase I need to buy something; pad and paper; and some benzodiazepines (specifically Xanax) to use as a last resort if I can't control anxiety.
Does this sound good? What else should I try to do to make my trip more comfortable?
And one last question… How does LSD compare to weed with intensity? I realize they're not the same drug, but how intense will say, 50 micrograms or 100 micrograms be compared to a weed high? (example: 50ug LSD=5 hits of good weed) Since I'm so familiar with cannabis, it would be nice to have some sort of mental picture. Is it the same sort of dissociated from reality "in a dream" kind of headspace like with cannabis? Or is it completely different? Does everything have that "cartoon" look? (I'm a little OCD when it comes to small details like this)
The only problem is I've had anxiety and panic attacks my whole life. I've gotten it under control for the most part, but I still have some lingering anxiety from time to time. I occasionally get anxiety and a little panicky when I smoke weed, but I've always been able to control it to some degree. I also have really bad emetophobia (fear of throwing up) which is the #1 reason why I'm doing LSD and not shrooms, and one of the main reasons why I still get occasional anxiety. I feel like anxiety has been controlling my life, and I want to learn to live with it, and I feel like an LSD trip might help me with that. Weed has helped my anxiety to some degree, but I know it doesn't open you up as much as LSD does. I also want to learn more about myself so I can be happier with my life overall. I also have some mild depression and a fear of dying, so I want to work with that as well. My ego has become so overpowering that I don't even know who I am anymore. And I don't need drugs to see that. I want to be happier with everything like I was when I was little.
I am mentally stable, and always have been, so I know that I'm ready for something like this. How should I approach this without ruining my whole trip with anxiety? I am currently planning on starting with 1/2 of a tab. Is this enough? I don't want to waste my time by being under stimulated, but I also don't want to be tripping balls on my first time. I'm kinda debating 1 full tab but I'm afraid that it could be really strong acid and will be too intense. I won't take any amount of it unless I am anxiety free, confident, and open minded prior to the trip. I will also tell my friend some "safe spots" that are familiar to take me to so that I can ground myself if things start getting bad.
I am also going to pack a bag with some items that can be helpful just incase things get rough. I'm planning on packing ginger, peppermint oil, and some hydroxyzine pills just incase I feel nauseous; some water and crackers; money just incase I need to buy something; pad and paper; and some benzodiazepines (specifically Xanax) to use as a last resort if I can't control anxiety.
Does this sound good? What else should I try to do to make my trip more comfortable?
And one last question… How does LSD compare to weed with intensity? I realize they're not the same drug, but how intense will say, 50 micrograms or 100 micrograms be compared to a weed high? (example: 50ug LSD=5 hits of good weed) Since I'm so familiar with cannabis, it would be nice to have some sort of mental picture. Is it the same sort of dissociated from reality "in a dream" kind of headspace like with cannabis? Or is it completely different? Does everything have that "cartoon" look? (I'm a little OCD when it comes to small details like this)