timeforachange
Greenlighter
- Joined
- May 22, 2016
- Messages
- 11
Hi,
New member here that needs a little help. Let me give you a little backstory to my situation. For the past 5-6 years I "created" this strange regimen for myself, that somehow just managed to keep myself balanced. I've read elsewhere that opioids in other countries have been used to treat ADD, depression etc. I'm 32 years old and do pretty decent for myself in my career. For whatever reason I found myself to be insanely more productive and focused at work while taking oxycodone, I would usually take a 10/325 pill and break it in half. It got the point that I was taking a half a pill 3x-4x a day, so anywhere between 15-20 mg of oxycodone per day, which I understand in retrospect is very light compared to some peoples doses. I'm not going to get into the topic of how this will only last for so long until it turned to 30 mg, then 40 mg, then 50 mg etc. I was told that at 6 months in, 2 years in, 3 years in and now 6 years later my dose has no never changed....I just know its time to stop, its pointless and it can't he healthy. Where the Hydro came about was at times my source would be out of oxy and have hydro 7.5/325 doses. I would take these in the same exact manor, a half 3-4x per day which would suffice, not quite as good, but it worked, and thats for a few months at a time not a week or so. Keep in mind, I still have about 100 or so pills left over...I'm just finished, thats it.
Fast forward to today, I have a very demanding sales job that requires me to not just be there physically, but i really NEED TO BE THERE. That's been probably the main culprit of my reluctancy to stop, as I didn't want to start bogging down and have it negatively affect me at work. The kicker is NOBODY knows I do this. Not my soon to be finance, not my family, not my friends who I consider family. I hide it well, and have no reason (embarrassed) to talk about it. I knew the days of quitting were coming up pretty soon, I just didn't know exactly when. Fast forward to 3 days ago, Thursday night at 8pm when I took my last half for the night. I went to sleep and BAM! I was awoken to the feeling of death from food poisoning. 2 Days I didn't put a single thing into my body, so I figured what the hell what better segway then this lol. Tonight at about 8pm will make the 72 hour mark. I haven't been back to work from being sick, but I will be going back tomorrow and heres where I'm getting a little worried....
Overall I do feel ok, slightly lethargic, I don't have the usually jolt of energy that I get hit with when it kicks in...but luckily I'm ok. Heads slightly clouded. Sleeping last night was night sweats beyond belief lol, but I made it. I'm just worried about work. Its tomorrow, and I need to make this feel as seamless as possible. Once again, I know I kept up a pretty light dose which should make this exponentially easier, but its still there. How long until I should be feeling back to normal? Any OTC things that I can take to help combat some of the usual symptoms I may encounter?
Thanks in advance
-idiot
New member here that needs a little help. Let me give you a little backstory to my situation. For the past 5-6 years I "created" this strange regimen for myself, that somehow just managed to keep myself balanced. I've read elsewhere that opioids in other countries have been used to treat ADD, depression etc. I'm 32 years old and do pretty decent for myself in my career. For whatever reason I found myself to be insanely more productive and focused at work while taking oxycodone, I would usually take a 10/325 pill and break it in half. It got the point that I was taking a half a pill 3x-4x a day, so anywhere between 15-20 mg of oxycodone per day, which I understand in retrospect is very light compared to some peoples doses. I'm not going to get into the topic of how this will only last for so long until it turned to 30 mg, then 40 mg, then 50 mg etc. I was told that at 6 months in, 2 years in, 3 years in and now 6 years later my dose has no never changed....I just know its time to stop, its pointless and it can't he healthy. Where the Hydro came about was at times my source would be out of oxy and have hydro 7.5/325 doses. I would take these in the same exact manor, a half 3-4x per day which would suffice, not quite as good, but it worked, and thats for a few months at a time not a week or so. Keep in mind, I still have about 100 or so pills left over...I'm just finished, thats it.
Fast forward to today, I have a very demanding sales job that requires me to not just be there physically, but i really NEED TO BE THERE. That's been probably the main culprit of my reluctancy to stop, as I didn't want to start bogging down and have it negatively affect me at work. The kicker is NOBODY knows I do this. Not my soon to be finance, not my family, not my friends who I consider family. I hide it well, and have no reason (embarrassed) to talk about it. I knew the days of quitting were coming up pretty soon, I just didn't know exactly when. Fast forward to 3 days ago, Thursday night at 8pm when I took my last half for the night. I went to sleep and BAM! I was awoken to the feeling of death from food poisoning. 2 Days I didn't put a single thing into my body, so I figured what the hell what better segway then this lol. Tonight at about 8pm will make the 72 hour mark. I haven't been back to work from being sick, but I will be going back tomorrow and heres where I'm getting a little worried....
Overall I do feel ok, slightly lethargic, I don't have the usually jolt of energy that I get hit with when it kicks in...but luckily I'm ok. Heads slightly clouded. Sleeping last night was night sweats beyond belief lol, but I made it. I'm just worried about work. Its tomorrow, and I need to make this feel as seamless as possible. Once again, I know I kept up a pretty light dose which should make this exponentially easier, but its still there. How long until I should be feeling back to normal? Any OTC things that I can take to help combat some of the usual symptoms I may encounter?
Thanks in advance
-idiot