Wow...after reading through this thread, I feel sooooo much better about my use lately....not to be judgmental to those of you that are dropping 6-12 a night, but I've been there before, about three and a half years ago, and I lost the magic for what I thought would be fucking forever....I couldn't roll from April 2006 - February 2008, and then finally this year, I was blessed with a miracle, the magic has returned. I have also moved all the way across the country, changed the person I am quite a lot, have quit using opiates for almost seven months with a few exceptions of occasional use(once every week or two), but I decided that any at all was just too much. And besides, I can roll, and what's more beautiful than that?
This is the seventh time I've rolled in the past two months, and twelve times this year. My average amount of pills these days is anywhere from one to three, and I am too scared to take it any further than that and end up with a tolerance too high to afford, and I am also deathly afraid of ever losing the magic again...
Anyway, one - three.
Tonight? Only one. And yes, I'm rolling balls, even though it's the seventh time in two months, and the twelfth time for 2008.
...and to think I thought it was bright to drop 40-50 pills over the span of a week when I was sixteen...thinking back at it makes me cringe, giggle, and glad that I'm not a complete e-tard like I was then...lulz, young and stupid, right?