al-laddin
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Actually Id like to first ask if 1.5-1.8 grams of cultivated closed cap cubensis is considered a low dose, because many people I know like to dose quite a bit higher from the same batch as me. Id say my friends usually like to go with 2.5-3.0 on average. These people seem nearly unaffected or bored by the dose that I would normally take.
Now at this dosage (roughly half an 1/8th) almost without fail, I experience an out of body experience. If Im walking I will get the feeling that Im hovering above myself and inside of my head simultaneously. Sometimes it feels as if my consciousness toggles back and forth from inside my head to 10/20 feet above my head. Also nearly without fail I get the feeling that there are small entities around watching me. I can sense them in my peripherals. I always got the sensation that they fit the European storybook dwarves/elves and oddly this is far before I had heard of the DMT/elf cliché. There has been occasions that I have caught brief glimses of these elves but its mostly a "feeling" and not visual. I also feel that there is one "main" entity governing the experience. I feel as if Im in close proximity to "God". Its a profound feeling beyond the normal senses.
Now, I enjoy sharing with you guys the way I subjectively experience psilocin but I have a question for you that I have long pondered as well. When the psilocin begins to take effect its not too bad, colors saturate, depth perception changes , my vision slightly distorts and I get the odd thought patterns etc. This part can be reasonably "fun". What happens next is where it gets a bit difficult for me- the come up/peak.
Many people complain about the severe "come up" associated with psilocin. But I always thought the come up was nothing compared to the peak. Im wondering If Im confusing the the two. I get this writhing, crawling, twisting extrememly unsettling body load during the peak. Its so severely disturbing that I often find myself completely immobilized and unable to speak coherently. At this point I will inevitabley feel my consciousness separate from my body. I describe this as having the sensation that Im sitting NEXT TO myself watching from an outside perspective how the psilocin is tearing my ego to shreads. This lasts probably a maximum of 20 minutes , but its highly likely Im off because of the extreme time dilation that accompanies this experience. When this feeling dissipates Im quite comfortable and I can enjoy the visuals and the emotional experience that awaits me. I can almost compare this experience to climbing a mountain in a thunderstorm and when I get to the top is when the elements are at their worst. When I get over the mountain peak there is a beautiful clearing, a meadow with a gentle stream and the suns bright glow gently warms my skin. Now I can relax.
As a side note, Im wondering if the uncomfortable body effects are what cause an out of body type feeling. They say in moments of extreme stress or trauma the mind attempts to dissociate itself from the body as a protective mechanism.
So my question ...is this turbulent storm that Im experiencing the come up or the peak? Does this experience sound familiar to you guys or is this not typical for you? I think it has more to do with the mental/body effects during this portion of the trip but I the visuals don't seem to REALLY kick in until right after this so Im confused about whether its the peak or the come up. What Im describing is the exact reason why Im always nervous to take psilocin. I almost always feel like Im going to lose my mind during this portion of the trip. Something Ive never experienced with ANY other psychedelic.
Also if any of you out there can relate, is there anything that you do to alleviate the intensity or do you have to just fasten your seat belts and grin and bear it?
Now at this dosage (roughly half an 1/8th) almost without fail, I experience an out of body experience. If Im walking I will get the feeling that Im hovering above myself and inside of my head simultaneously. Sometimes it feels as if my consciousness toggles back and forth from inside my head to 10/20 feet above my head. Also nearly without fail I get the feeling that there are small entities around watching me. I can sense them in my peripherals. I always got the sensation that they fit the European storybook dwarves/elves and oddly this is far before I had heard of the DMT/elf cliché. There has been occasions that I have caught brief glimses of these elves but its mostly a "feeling" and not visual. I also feel that there is one "main" entity governing the experience. I feel as if Im in close proximity to "God". Its a profound feeling beyond the normal senses.
Now, I enjoy sharing with you guys the way I subjectively experience psilocin but I have a question for you that I have long pondered as well. When the psilocin begins to take effect its not too bad, colors saturate, depth perception changes , my vision slightly distorts and I get the odd thought patterns etc. This part can be reasonably "fun". What happens next is where it gets a bit difficult for me- the come up/peak.
Many people complain about the severe "come up" associated with psilocin. But I always thought the come up was nothing compared to the peak. Im wondering If Im confusing the the two. I get this writhing, crawling, twisting extrememly unsettling body load during the peak. Its so severely disturbing that I often find myself completely immobilized and unable to speak coherently. At this point I will inevitabley feel my consciousness separate from my body. I describe this as having the sensation that Im sitting NEXT TO myself watching from an outside perspective how the psilocin is tearing my ego to shreads. This lasts probably a maximum of 20 minutes , but its highly likely Im off because of the extreme time dilation that accompanies this experience. When this feeling dissipates Im quite comfortable and I can enjoy the visuals and the emotional experience that awaits me. I can almost compare this experience to climbing a mountain in a thunderstorm and when I get to the top is when the elements are at their worst. When I get over the mountain peak there is a beautiful clearing, a meadow with a gentle stream and the suns bright glow gently warms my skin. Now I can relax.
As a side note, Im wondering if the uncomfortable body effects are what cause an out of body type feeling. They say in moments of extreme stress or trauma the mind attempts to dissociate itself from the body as a protective mechanism.
So my question ...is this turbulent storm that Im experiencing the come up or the peak? Does this experience sound familiar to you guys or is this not typical for you? I think it has more to do with the mental/body effects during this portion of the trip but I the visuals don't seem to REALLY kick in until right after this so Im confused about whether its the peak or the come up. What Im describing is the exact reason why Im always nervous to take psilocin. I almost always feel like Im going to lose my mind during this portion of the trip. Something Ive never experienced with ANY other psychedelic.
Also if any of you out there can relate, is there anything that you do to alleviate the intensity or do you have to just fasten your seat belts and grin and bear it?