So far tonight i have consumed and plan to consume as the day goes on
230 mg Crystal methamphetamine
200 mg Seroquel
200 amisulpride
4 425 ml glasses of Draught beer
600 mg paracetamol
600 mg ibuprofen
And if i could afford it i would love to snort 300 mg of China White heroin. But i simply can't afford to purchase the smack. If only my heroin hook up was organised enough to offer credit. Still i should be thankful my meth dealer is reliable, he gave me an extra 30 milligrams on top of my purchased 200 mg and he even knocked ten bucks off the cost of my deal cos i brought him a large pizza from the place where i work.
I am flying after smoking 230 Milligrams of crystal meth which in Aussie drug talk is a dose of two point three shards. Which is confusing cos to be correct you should say point two three but ice users down under are hardly the scientific type. This amount of meth should keep me awake for about 40 hours including the time i was awake before smoking the meth. Methamphetamine or Ice really is a funny drug for me cos it makes me feel so relaxed while staying seated for extraordinary lengths of time using my PC. I don't feel like getting up and dancing at all when high. I must be lucky because i never get violent or aggressive when high or coming down from ice but yeah going that long without sleep while feeling that up and high at first and then that down and tired does take a toll on your emotions.
I don't mind the meth comedown as long as i can either snort some China white Heroin or if i'm on a tight budget drink a few glasses of beer. I never drink alcohol when high on meth but when well and truly coming down 16 hours after smoking four 425 ml glasses of Carlton draught really does do wonders for taking the edge off. Being a drinker i don't need the hassle of messing around with GHB. Liqurd G is f&*cking dangerous shit that only ravers with a death wish use. Same thing goes for diazipam xanax and other benzo's. these type of tablets may make a ice comedown more pleasant and help relieve the chronic insomnia that comes with using meth but using benzo's sensibly is easier said than done. But if you are a meth user who swears by diazapam etc for a come down who understands the risks of long term benzo use then i respect your decision to take that type of medication. Each to their own but i prefer to limit my benzo use to the times when i am admitted to the acute mental health ward however that is a whole other story.
The main drawback to using meth is not the comedown to me but the fact you have a sleep pattern like dracula and even on the days you don't use meth you can't fall asleep till 5am. How meth heads hold down jobs that require getting up at 7am on weekdays is beyond me but for me i work in hospitality and can sleep in to 3 in the afternoon. You could say i'm really lazy wanting to sleep in everyday but for the life of me i can't fall asleep till the early AM hours. I even take seroquel daily but if i didn't take that i wouldn't sleep at all. Although to be honest i have always had issues with underlying mental illness and insomnia. Even when i was a young boy in primary school my teachers and fellow students told me i would have mental problems as a adult and that was years before i tried any drug. And to put things in perspective i had a 5 year period from 2009 till the end of 2014 where i didn't touch even a millagram of methamphetamine or any other stimulant and for the most part i didn't function any better at all. Despite not taking any stimulants for 5 years i still had my dysfunctional sleep pattern of not being able to fall asleep till the early morning. I also still need to take anti-psychotic medications like seroquel daily to function regardless if i am drug free. Another interesting aspect of my mental illness is even if i don't use meth i still have the occasional night where i can't sleep and this is largely a result of me suffering what i believe is called delayed sleep disoder. A person with this disprder will find it very diffuclt to fall asleep regularly and often they will fall asleep and wake up 20 to 40 minutes later every day day after day. Not falling alseep at a regularly time means a person will get out of bed at 3pm one day and then get up again the following day at 3:30pm so eventually a person will be falling alseep at 9am in the morning and not getting out of bed till 6pm. Once a person is getting up at 6pm they will decide to have a night where they do not go to bed and have a night without getting sleep in order to reset their sleeping pattern. Of course setting an alarm clock and making sure you drag yourself out of bed to meet your work and other social responsibilities will help but most people with delayed sleep disorder they will have a night once every few weeks where they can not naturally fall asleep. For me even when not using drugs i still need 4 hours at a minimum to fall asleep and i can mange to make my routine work around my sleep pattern and time my sleepless nights for the nights when i have the next day off work.
Interestingly if i have a sleepless night cos i smoke meth and say have this sleepless night from meth once every two to three weeks i will fall alseep on all the other nights no problem. I know this is highly debatable but i am of the opinion i function better with the occasional night using meth. Because as i mentioned even when i am 100 percent drug free i still have the odd night here and there where i can't fall asleep. So i am damned if i do or damned if i don't.
Think i am talking crap them check out this link. This wikiepadia page has a far better explanation of delayed sleep disorder.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Delayed_sleep_phase_disorder
You could say i have a drug problem but i think it is more a case of i'm a person with problems that users drugs. I don't binge on meth or get dope sick from smack. Due to the cost of hard drugs where i live and the fact i am not a IV user i've never progressed beyond a occasional user. I know tell it to Narcotics anonymous LOL
But my god the buzz from smoking ice really is an amazing feeling which is second to none. Drug users on Bluelight may love to hate on meth on account of the horrendous come down but seriously how enjoyable is the peak. It's just a question of knowing your limits and not going overboard in the amount you take. The trick is to dose once for example 100 to 300 mg of crystal methamphetamine depending entirely on the potency of the gear and your tolerance and then ride it out. Re-dosing Ice every 12 to 24 hours and going multiple days high without any sleep is only for the truly mentally strong but even if you are the most mentally stable person with no issues going 72-96+ hours without sleep means the come down is going to leave you crippled both emotionally and psychically.
Anyway i am rambling now, tbh meth makes me do that. i've been writing this post for about 4 hours now when all i really need to say was
"240 milligrams of high grade crystal methamphetamine. flying after smoking it chasing the dragon style.
Will undoubtedly drink four schooners of beer in 12 hours time at my local pub ( Each Schooner glass is 425 mls and the beer is 4.7 percent alcohol. Not a huge amount of alcohol to consume in one session but should hit the spot and take the edge off given the circumstances)
Wish i could afford 300 milligrams of China white heroin to snort in the afternoon instead of the beer but MEH what are you going to do, heroin is expensive and beer is cheap.
At least i don't have hep A hep B or hep C and my last liver function test was all good so the beer isn't sending me to a early grave.
Around 18 hours after first smoking my meth at about 8:30 pm in the evening i will take a couple of tablets of generic 500 mg Panamax paracetamol as well as two generic Rafen Ibuprofen 200 mg tablets. Paracetamol and Ibuprofen may be mickey mouse for pain relief but if you can't afford heroin for a meth come down these two meds are better than nothing for easing the headache and general discomfort that comes with a meth come down. I will also take my daily dose of Seroquel and amisulpride. I really wish at times i was more mentally and emotionally stable and didn't require a regime of anti-psychotics every day but i am what i am and there is no changing my brain. I have PTSD i have PTSD. If only weight gain wasn't a side affect of seroquel and amisulpride. Don't get me wrong i am not that superficial and narcissistic that i resent being overweight it's the chance that i may get type 2 diabetes in the future and worst case scenario i may need one or both legs amputated. Being wheelchair bound and needing round the clock care would be no life, i would so much rather have a fatal heart attack that ends things quickly and rather painlessly. I won't go into details but i have that many health complications it's not funny not to mention the depressing statistic the people diagnosed with schizo type mental illness on anti-psychotic medications have a life expectancy 20 years lower than the general population.
Oh shit i'm rambling again.
I smoked the meth 8 to 9 hours ago last night and it's been an enjoyable night but i am in for a long day today not to mention a even longer night once i get to the point the meth as worn off and i am too tired to stay awake but too wired to fall asleep. Ah the joys from stimulant use.
I better just post this reply now, god knows i've been on it long enough
Love my meth!
