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I first discovered benzos this summer. 20 and never into drugs; infact I would say I was anti-drug but mental health issues which forced the principal to 'kick' me out of school, failing HS, going on unhelpful antipsychotics as well as poor relationship with parents, extended family and no friends has really changed my perspective.
Know people say you shouldn't self medicate with recreational drugs but honestly I find that alcohol, nicotine, and benzos (only ones I've tried so far) have stopped my suicidal and homicidal ideation.
Before going to the States this summer, I asked from my G.P for Valium as I got 'nervous on flights'; never used it before but wanted it to basically fall asleep on flights. Travelling the first time when I was over 18 meant that I could ask for alcohol as well. People said it was addictive and the withdrawl sucked but when I tried a few alone, it didn't do anything compared to alcohol. Before I left though, I 'copied' the same prescription and got in total 5 bottles of 50 tabs each containing diazepam (250 tablets).
I took a few dozen before the 13hr flight when leaving GMT time in the morning. I asked for alcohol on the flight which I got and then pretty much slept, forgot everything fully until I arrived in the US 9 hours behind where I met my family. I used to live in a different part of the US 11 years before but never went to where my other family was. Missed the experience of going back into the US as I didn't even remember it.
I read while there on here how dangerous it is to combine both as many people end up injuring themselves and/or in jail not remembering what they did. The only bad thing I did was accidentally knock over the drink of the woman who was sitting next to myself which made her angry and get up to move away and then despite my requests, the cabin crew didn't give me more alcohol but my father says I just slept all through and didn't disturb anyone. Getting there I realized I had consumed my entire stock of drowsy antihistamines and 1 and a half bottles of diazepam.
Coming back, I didn't get any more as I didn't have a prescription and didn't feel the need to but I chanced 'copying' it with a printer and got away several more times until one of the pharmacists called the G.P who said he hadn't prescribed that a few days ago but a few months. Basically called the police here who I believe cautioned me and just told me to get a card legally to get free G.P visits which I technically can't. Despite me not having taken diazepam 1 week before I gave the last successful copied prescription, I didn't remember the quick chat at the station, only the tall police guy talking to me at the bus stop.
Know people say you shouldn't self medicate with recreational drugs but honestly I find that alcohol, nicotine, and benzos (only ones I've tried so far) have stopped my suicidal and homicidal ideation.
Before going to the States this summer, I asked from my G.P for Valium as I got 'nervous on flights'; never used it before but wanted it to basically fall asleep on flights. Travelling the first time when I was over 18 meant that I could ask for alcohol as well. People said it was addictive and the withdrawl sucked but when I tried a few alone, it didn't do anything compared to alcohol. Before I left though, I 'copied' the same prescription and got in total 5 bottles of 50 tabs each containing diazepam (250 tablets).
I took a few dozen before the 13hr flight when leaving GMT time in the morning. I asked for alcohol on the flight which I got and then pretty much slept, forgot everything fully until I arrived in the US 9 hours behind where I met my family. I used to live in a different part of the US 11 years before but never went to where my other family was. Missed the experience of going back into the US as I didn't even remember it.
I read while there on here how dangerous it is to combine both as many people end up injuring themselves and/or in jail not remembering what they did. The only bad thing I did was accidentally knock over the drink of the woman who was sitting next to myself which made her angry and get up to move away and then despite my requests, the cabin crew didn't give me more alcohol but my father says I just slept all through and didn't disturb anyone. Getting there I realized I had consumed my entire stock of drowsy antihistamines and 1 and a half bottles of diazepam.
Coming back, I didn't get any more as I didn't have a prescription and didn't feel the need to but I chanced 'copying' it with a printer and got away several more times until one of the pharmacists called the G.P who said he hadn't prescribed that a few days ago but a few months. Basically called the police here who I believe cautioned me and just told me to get a card legally to get free G.P visits which I technically can't. Despite me not having taken diazepam 1 week before I gave the last successful copied prescription, I didn't remember the quick chat at the station, only the tall police guy talking to me at the bus stop.