So, this is sort of a companion thread with some of it cut and paste from another I just made asking people about whether or not Mescaline has full effects while on an SSRI since I'm on prozac and can't get life changing results from an 8th of shrooms. Now I know not all trips will be life changing, but regardless, they are something I've realized COULD greatly help me if I wasn't on prozac.
I really don't like my life. Like, I'm not suicidal, and some days I'm ok, but I have MAJOR regrets. I do try to be grateful for what I have, but I find it incredibly difficult to change. I have something called Non Verbal Learning Disability which some say is related to Aspergers and which is probably what causes my depression and anxiety. I find it much harder to achieve change in my life than some people, which is why I wish psychedelics had FULL effect on me. I had a good shroom trip over the summer with some mild visuals and a good insight at the end which was aided by nitrous and weed, but then the last trip I took last month was just 6 hours of UTTER DESPAIR.
Now, I am willing to believe that sometimes a bad trip can actually be a good one in disguise. I consider myself somewhat spiritual, and at the age of 43 I have decided that I am going to believe in some kind of higher universal consciousness (I DON'T like the term "God") because without it I feel hopeless. I have not achieved what I want to in life, and while on my last shroom trip I was thinking about how I was recently watching some documentary where someone with horrible OCD tripped ONCE on shrooms and it was life changing and his OCD went away forever and he had all these blissful and incredible insights. I was wondering why someone with depression and anxiety like me couldn't be gifted such a beautiful life-changing experience as that guy, and the answer is obviously because a dumb doctor put me on prozac at age 14 and now I'm 43 and probably can't ever get off of it. I should never have gotten on it in the first place. Psychedelics are SO much better.
I do take shrooms sometimes and have taken LSD many years ago, and I can get some effects, but they are always blunted, and I have some pretty terrible depression and anxiety which could really use the beneficial effects of an UNAFFECTED dose of a psychedelic.
I mean, is it even REMOTELY safe for someone who has been on prozac for 30 years to EVER wean off? My doctor told me he doubted I could ever get off of it.
What else, if not psychedelics, can really help a person like me with depression and anxiety who sees no way out and feels hopeless?
I'm sure there are things, like perhaps having a near death experience, which can, under the right circumstances, change a depressed person's perspective, but I'm not quite sure I want to seek that out LOL. I have done martial arts in the past with the hopes of having a fight because I believed it would bring me the relief I'm seeking, but multiple injuries and some family issues have led to me not being able to train for the past 4 years and I don't really believe that fight will ever happen.
I do use the Wim Hof method of cold showers, ice baths and breathing exercises for relief, and it does help. I continue to search for anything spiritual that will help me appreciate my life more. So, now I'm just rambling...Any responses from people who understand depression and anxiety would be appreciated...
I really don't like my life. Like, I'm not suicidal, and some days I'm ok, but I have MAJOR regrets. I do try to be grateful for what I have, but I find it incredibly difficult to change. I have something called Non Verbal Learning Disability which some say is related to Aspergers and which is probably what causes my depression and anxiety. I find it much harder to achieve change in my life than some people, which is why I wish psychedelics had FULL effect on me. I had a good shroom trip over the summer with some mild visuals and a good insight at the end which was aided by nitrous and weed, but then the last trip I took last month was just 6 hours of UTTER DESPAIR.
Now, I am willing to believe that sometimes a bad trip can actually be a good one in disguise. I consider myself somewhat spiritual, and at the age of 43 I have decided that I am going to believe in some kind of higher universal consciousness (I DON'T like the term "God") because without it I feel hopeless. I have not achieved what I want to in life, and while on my last shroom trip I was thinking about how I was recently watching some documentary where someone with horrible OCD tripped ONCE on shrooms and it was life changing and his OCD went away forever and he had all these blissful and incredible insights. I was wondering why someone with depression and anxiety like me couldn't be gifted such a beautiful life-changing experience as that guy, and the answer is obviously because a dumb doctor put me on prozac at age 14 and now I'm 43 and probably can't ever get off of it. I should never have gotten on it in the first place. Psychedelics are SO much better.
I do take shrooms sometimes and have taken LSD many years ago, and I can get some effects, but they are always blunted, and I have some pretty terrible depression and anxiety which could really use the beneficial effects of an UNAFFECTED dose of a psychedelic.
I mean, is it even REMOTELY safe for someone who has been on prozac for 30 years to EVER wean off? My doctor told me he doubted I could ever get off of it.
What else, if not psychedelics, can really help a person like me with depression and anxiety who sees no way out and feels hopeless?
I'm sure there are things, like perhaps having a near death experience, which can, under the right circumstances, change a depressed person's perspective, but I'm not quite sure I want to seek that out LOL. I have done martial arts in the past with the hopes of having a fight because I believed it would bring me the relief I'm seeking, but multiple injuries and some family issues have led to me not being able to train for the past 4 years and I don't really believe that fight will ever happen.
I do use the Wim Hof method of cold showers, ice baths and breathing exercises for relief, and it does help. I continue to search for anything spiritual that will help me appreciate my life more. So, now I'm just rambling...Any responses from people who understand depression and anxiety would be appreciated...