GetMeOutOfThisCRAP
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First I'll start out with just tiny bit of background of my usage so people can answer more accurately: I was addicted to pain relief meds for 2 years--not a heavy user by means but 30-60 mgs of oxycodone towards the end of this journey. I got past a moderate withdrawal and the depression was still severe even 4 months after that lovely experience.. So back in September I started eating kratom regularly and it cured the post-kicking depression like a godsend. Started at 5-8 grams daily and that rose to 15-20 grams after about 4 months. Kratom has helped saved many lives but lately it's stealing my energy and the cost is really adding up as my tolerance grows. I'd like to finally be done with this miserable lifestyle that started with harder opiates. I've gone through so many depressive episodes because of the use of kratom/oxy turning me into a hermit and not allowing me to really enjoy life to the fullest. My life was considerately better when I made the switch to kratom but it's catching up with me again like how oxycodone did at the end of that addiction and causing more harm than good within my life. I'm tired of waking up sick and chained down to a substance like it's a god and I'd like to be totally done with opiates. Kratom was a far better antidepressant than the latter but it's making me depressed at this point and stopped working as such. I was in a serious relationship and it felt guilty sneaking around having to use.
However, I just remember how miserable I was getting off pain medication and I really don't know how comparable kratom withdrawal is to harder substances and what the timeline is. I have ativan and I'm trying to taper off kratom rather than quit cold turkey.. if that actually helps. How bad is the depression when coming off kratom though as opposed to harder opiates? That really is the worst symptom for me. I've just been afraid to take the plunge and this summer is really the best time to kick. Bottom line is kratom doesn't feel good anymore even when I take huger doses so I have to face the consequences. Some of my best life experiences have been on oxy/kratom but I can't even remember them because of the fog that comes with the substances. Thanks!
However, I just remember how miserable I was getting off pain medication and I really don't know how comparable kratom withdrawal is to harder substances and what the timeline is. I have ativan and I'm trying to taper off kratom rather than quit cold turkey.. if that actually helps. How bad is the depression when coming off kratom though as opposed to harder opiates? That really is the worst symptom for me. I've just been afraid to take the plunge and this summer is really the best time to kick. Bottom line is kratom doesn't feel good anymore even when I take huger doses so I have to face the consequences. Some of my best life experiences have been on oxy/kratom but I can't even remember them because of the fog that comes with the substances. Thanks!
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